I don't know.
Today I really felt alone. I felt like I was being ignored by everyone. I don't know if it's my emmotions kicking in or what, but I just can't seem to stop crying. I can't even sleep. I just want to drive around all night and see where it takes me. I want to go out and have fun while I still have the chance, but everyone else has plans or something comes up all of a sudden and I am left alone again. I am scared of a bunch of things, like paying for all the baby stuff, getting married, going to school. I just want to have fun. I want to hang out with my boyfriend if we ever have the chance to. I want to go to the movies, or to a restaurant. I don't even know where I am going with this. It is just me rambling and nobody caring and my fucking emotions to where one minute I am mad and then the next I am crying like a baby. Fuck this shit!!