mindless work ramblings. . .
What is it about Colin that makes me so incredibly stupid?
I'm aware that starting/restarting/i dont even know what the hell we're at anymore would be emotional suicide. I've been here before - four times already - I know the drill. I dont want to be his girlfriend so why do I still have to write these lame entries like a fuckin loser?
He's the most selfish person Ive ever met. He definitely doesnt understand me. We have NOTHING in common. He's gay. He doesnt pay any attention to me for 3/4 of the year. He's gay. He never thinks things are his fault. Did I mention he's gay?
Yesterday night we went mini golfing. It was really wierd - he was kinda hovering. I'd walk to the next hole and then hed follow and stand about a foot behind me. Around hole seven I started to wonder and by hole 12 it was getting rediculous. Every single time. Id understand if it was just us, but alaina was there too. And mark noticed. Mark! I dont know what the deal was
a slightly humorous story. . .
the other night I went over there to watch a movie. I asked my mom if i could borrow her car and she asked me where i was going. I told her i was going to colin's and she turns to me gives me a face and about twenty seconds later turns and says, "well that makes sense - it's summer" She said it really snotty too - it was so wierd to hear my mom say something like that. But its not like I hadnt already thought of that myself. . .
I'm aware that starting/restarting/i dont even know what the hell we're at anymore would be emotional suicide. I've been here before - four times already - I know the drill. I dont want to be his girlfriend so why do I still have to write these lame entries like a fuckin loser?
He's the most selfish person Ive ever met. He definitely doesnt understand me. We have NOTHING in common. He's gay. He doesnt pay any attention to me for 3/4 of the year. He's gay. He never thinks things are his fault. Did I mention he's gay?
Yesterday night we went mini golfing. It was really wierd - he was kinda hovering. I'd walk to the next hole and then hed follow and stand about a foot behind me. Around hole seven I started to wonder and by hole 12 it was getting rediculous. Every single time. Id understand if it was just us, but alaina was there too. And mark noticed. Mark! I dont know what the deal was
a slightly humorous story. . .
the other night I went over there to watch a movie. I asked my mom if i could borrow her car and she asked me where i was going. I told her i was going to colin's and she turns to me gives me a face and about twenty seconds later turns and says, "well that makes sense - it's summer" She said it really snotty too - it was so wierd to hear my mom say something like that. But its not like I hadnt already thought of that myself. . .