May 09, 2003 11:53
Scuttle67: still awake?
Scuttle67: or just forgot to shut it off?
JenDMB16: are you kiddig me
Scuttle67: are you still drunk?
JenDMB16: but im just about done
JenDMB16: theres drybe
JenDMB16: and then theres what i am
JenDMB16: but i cant stop! ;-)
Scuttle67: are you puking?
JenDMB16: nope - not yet
JenDMB16: are you proud?
JenDMB16: but im not sone yet
Scuttle67: right
Scuttle67: i'm proud
JenDMB16: ali just went to bed like 15 minutes ago
Scuttle67: sorry i had to peace out
JenDMB16: hey thats alright - except now im the only person up
JenDMB16: like always
Scuttle67: i'm still awake so you're not the only person
JenDMB16: well why arent you here?
Scuttle67: haha
JenDMB16: youre not going to drink with me - youre no good
JenDMB16: ;-)
JenDMB16: im finally 21 and noones here!
JenDMB16: damn my friends and their sleeping habits
Scuttle67: i'm sorry
Scuttle67: and me and my aprehensions
JenDMB16: ???
Scuttle67: never mind
Scuttle67: that word is too big for the drunken mind
JenDMB16: ha ha - too drunk for you to do that!
JenDMB16: exactly
Scuttle67: right
Scuttle67: go to bed
Scuttle67: drink some gatorade
JenDMB16: i dont sleep well after ive been drinking
Scuttle67: thats so weird
Scuttle67: i peace out on life after i've been drinking
Scuttle67: it's like my head is burried in the pillow
JenDMB16: and if you mean what i think you mean - if you wanted to do anything you would have been back here alreasy
JenDMB16: already
Scuttle67: jen, neither of us need that
JenDMB16: well i dont think anything could make me like thaat
Scuttle67: i'm not sure that either of us want it
Scuttle67: besides the immediate desire, it all turns into a mess after that
Scuttle67: we've been there before
JenDMB16: yeah but its different now
Scuttle67: ????
JenDMB16: hey i dont want you to anything you dont want to do
Scuttle67: you're drunk we shouldn't be doing this
JenDMB16: we're not remember - youre there im here
Scuttle67: even the conversation
JenDMB16: but i dont finad a problem talking about it
JenDMB16: oh come on - if we cant talk about it then who can
Scuttle67: jen what i want to do, and what i can/want to take responsibilty for tomorrow are two completely different things
Scuttle67: i know
Scuttle67: but talk is one thing
JenDMB16: then that means you want to come over here
JenDMB16: what the hell, coln, can we not do anything rtight?
Scuttle67: jen, you know i'm not good for you
JenDMB16: i do
JenDMB16: but you being here just makes sense
Scuttle67: so then what is the point
Scuttle67: you're not making sense
JenDMB16: ha ha
Scuttle67: us trying over and over again has caused a lot more pain for both of us than ever needed
Scuttle67: don't you think there comes a point when we should just stop trying to make it work?
JenDMB16: yeah and why do we bother again and again?
JenDMB16: oh come on - youre a julia roberts fan
JenDMB16: :-)
Scuttle67: that's what i'm saying
Scuttle67: so get in your bed and get some sleep
Scuttle67: we'll hang out soon
Scuttle67: alcohol involved please
Scuttle67: tonight was a blast
JenDMB16: youre avoiding me
JenDMB16: but thanks
Scuttle67: no i'm not
Scuttle67: you know it is a bad idea for me to come there
JenDMB16: if i knew that would i be asking you?
Scuttle67: that's the alcohol asking
Scuttle67: you just told me it is a bad idea
Scuttle67: you have a roommate...nothing could happen
JenDMB16: ha ha ha - maybe
JenDMB16: i dont even want you to come over so we can like hook up or anything, but itd be nice to have you around to fall asleep with
Scuttle67: okay i will not let you get to my weak spots
Scuttle67: that's not a fair game
Scuttle67: i smell like smoke anyway
Scuttle67: i just went to a diner with my friends
JenDMB16: ???
Scuttle67: you best not be ???ing the weak spots comment
Scuttle67: you know exactly what i mean
JenDMB16: ??? sorry :-[
Scuttle67: it's cool
Scuttle67: you're just sinful
JenDMB16: ha ha ha thanks
JenDMB16: noones ever called me sinful before
Scuttle67: well i'm the best person to be the first i think
Scuttle67: i know your devilish ways
JenDMB16: no you dont -= ive come along way in two years
Scuttle67: my point exactly
JenDMB16: oh god, i was kidding
JenDMB16: you dont mean that
Scuttle67: listen
Scuttle67: temptation is a bitch
Scuttle67: i think you should go to bed
Scuttle67: and i should attempt to do the same
JenDMB16: there you go avoinding me again
JenDMB16: can we ever just talk something out?
JenDMB16: and live through it?
Scuttle67: well i feel like you're going to get what you want if i keep this up
Scuttle67: and that's not good
JenDMB16: what do you mean what i want
Scuttle67: it's 5:30 in the morning
JenDMB16: jesus
Scuttle67: don't get pissed
Scuttle67: please just listen to what i'm saying
Scuttle67: can you please just respect what i have to say
Scuttle67: i'm trying to be reasonable
JenDMB16: yes
Scuttle67: thank you
Scuttle67: alright get some sleep
JenDMB16: (are you done?) I just think that if its not now, itll be some other time - and I'm ready to deal with it now
JenDMB16: and youre scared so youre avoiding the issue
Scuttle67: and you're drunk
Scuttle67: so i'd rather not do this now
JenDMB16: im getting more sober by the minute
Scuttle67: i'm not scared
Scuttle67: listen i can have a hook up with no baggage attached but i'm worried that you can't
Scuttle67: i'm tired of hurting you
Scuttle67: i just want to be your friend
Scuttle67: not the kid who is jeered and abused because he had an attraction and acted on it
Scuttle67: i don't like to walk into a room of you and your friends and feel all the eyes in the room hit me with, oh there is her ex-boyfriend who was such a jerk
JenDMB16: colin i just wnat you here - it seems like i only ger this chance once every four mothis and i feel like tomorrow is the day you could stop talking to me again when all i really want is to fall asleep in your arms and somehow make this birthday redeemable
JenDMB16: and if i let this go, i wont see you and i wont talk to you
Scuttle67: but that's a choice on both of our behalf
Scuttle67: we could just get over our pissy attitudes and talk to each other regularly
JenDMB16: colin what if i promise you i wont make a morve on you
JenDMB16: would that be better
Scuttle67: i don't care if you make a move on me
JenDMB16: becuse iv thought that before and ive always been disappointed
Scuttle67: i think i'd like it
JenDMB16: ha ha ha
Scuttle67: i just don't want the baggage right now
Scuttle67: i'm not sure you could seperate it all tomorrow morning
Scuttle67: and i have a meeting at noon
Scuttle67: it's now 5:37
JenDMB16: please?
Scuttle67: things aren't lining up well
Scuttle67: oh you're begging
JenDMB16: oh my god i am!
JenDMB16: what the hell happened to me?
Scuttle67: i really need to try to get some sleep here
JenDMB16: dont make me resort to the begging again
Scuttle67: you're making this terribly difficult
JenDMB16: i know - thats my aim
Scuttle67: blah
JenDMB16: blah is colin for youre going to come over right?
Scuttle67: i'm gonna say no
JenDMB16: damn it!
Scuttle67: i'm really sorry
JenDMB16: i promised didnt i?
Scuttle67: promised what?
JenDMB16: that i wouldnt try anything
Scuttle67: it's not fucking that
Scuttle67: i told you i'd probably like hat
Scuttle67: that
Scuttle67: i'm sorry
Scuttle67: not tonight
JenDMB16: well then why arent you coming, and dont tell me the noon thing cause i dont buy it
Scuttle67: well i do have a meeting at noon
JenDMB16: i know - but i dont think thats it
Scuttle67: i think you will know why when you think about how i've made you feel in the past
Scuttle67: please just take my no and understand that our friendship is not standing still
Scuttle67: i hear what you're saying
JenDMB16: if thats all i was thinking about i wouldnt have been so quick to invite you to my birthday party
Scuttle67: i feel an attractiong
Scuttle67: i just don't think you are ready for this to happen
JenDMB16: i already said - i think twice - i just want you around
Scuttle67: damn your mother must have asked you about i million times "what don't you understand about no"
JenDMB16: if something happens fine i can deal with that - if something doesnt happen i can dea with that too
JenDMB16: yeah and she didnt have much sucess either
JenDMB16: im a stubborn bitch what can i say
Scuttle67: exactly
Scuttle67: no dealing with it
Scuttle67: go to bed
Scuttle67: i'm sorry
Scuttle67: i'm not trying to be a dick
JenDMB16: arg!
JenDMB16: i want to deal with it - either way
JenDMB16: get it out of the way
Scuttle67: deal with what?
JenDMB16: you say things like it cant happen tonight and it just jabs me - like what if it was tomorrow itd be fine?
JenDMB16: we always have the same problem - youre attracted tome and im attracted to you
Scuttle67: i don't know
Scuttle67: yes i know
Scuttle67: jen, i can't do this now
Scuttle67: i'm too tired
Scuttle67: drunk or not, you're going to mad handle me here
Scuttle67: i want to talk with you but i can't do it now
JenDMB16: so what i should hang on till tomorrow?
Scuttle67: hang on to what?
JenDMB16: sorry i take that back
Scuttle67: yes, please hang on to being my friend
Scuttle67: i'm sorry please don't be pissed
Scuttle67: i want to fall asleep with you
Scuttle67: i really do
Scuttle67: i just can't tonight
Scuttle67: and i know that may make it harder (the tonight part)
Scuttle67: but it's the truth
Scuttle67: i have some things to sort out
Scuttle67: just for me
JenDMB16: im just scared that im not going to talk to you until like october - becuase thats the way things work
JenDMB16: and i just want to cry
JenDMB16: like a loser
JenDMB16: :-)
Scuttle67: then change that
Scuttle67: call me tomorrow
Scuttle67: if you're scared of it then don't let it happen
Scuttle67: and for the love of God stop with the gay jokes
Scuttle67: it's really not fucking helping your cause
JenDMB16: i dont mean to piss you off but what about january - i didnt want it to happen then
JenDMB16: hey i was like that before the time of you
Scuttle67: want what to happen
Scuttle67: we hung out
Scuttle67: i was honest with you
JenDMB16: us reverting to our normal individual lives and not talking
Scuttle67: well you didn't call
Scuttle67: or IM
Scuttle67: I need to go to sleep
JenDMB16: oh my god - now i just want you to come over so i can kick your ass
Scuttle67: i'm really sorry to do this
JenDMB16: are you kidding me
Scuttle67: haha
JenDMB16: are you kidding me
Scuttle67: jen
JenDMB16: are you kidding me
Scuttle67: stop it
JenDMB16: arg!
JenDMB16: you infuriate me
Scuttle67: i'm being so truthful and honest with you
JenDMB16: really you do
Scuttle67: see what i mean
Scuttle67: this is the problem
Scuttle67: and you infuriate me
JenDMB16: i draw the line at 5 unreturned ims over a two month span
Scuttle67: i can't tell you how many times i have made a face at the scree in the past half hour
JenDMB16: i kind of get the clue that you dont want to speak with me
Scuttle67: okay then i'm bad at returning IM's
Scuttle67: try the phone
Scuttle67: i'm much better at that
Scuttle67: jen please
JenDMB16: why would i - if youre not going to retur an im why would you wnat ot speak with me on the phone
Scuttle67: i'm falling asleep infront of the screen
JenDMB16: alright - ill let you go to bed
Scuttle67: because i always have my phone with me
Scuttle67: i'm sorry
JenDMB16: but this is not over
Scuttle67: i'm sure you're going to be pissed
Scuttle67: i'm glad it's not over
Scuttle67: call me tomorrow
Scuttle67: !!!!!!!!!!
Scuttle67: and don't whine about not talking to me
JenDMB16: what does that mean!
Scuttle67: 420-3839
JenDMB16: talk about faces
Scuttle67: no more excuses just do it
Scuttle67: i'll talk to you tomorrow
Scuttle67: get some sleep please
JenDMB16: fine - what time?
Scuttle67: try to avoid the bartles and james
JenDMB16: no way
Scuttle67: and be done with lunch by 1:30
JenDMB16: and i can just go to wegmans and buy more
JenDMB16: yay!
Scuttle67: haha
Scuttle67: talk to you tomorrow
JenDMB16: alright
Scuttle67: happy birthday!!!!
JenDMB16: thank you
Scuttle67: i'm glad this all happened
Scuttle67: i'm serioius
JenDMB16: hey colin are we fine?
Scuttle67: yes
JenDMB16: okay good
Scuttle67: i promise jen
Scuttle67: i had such a great time with you tonight
Scuttle67: we'll talk tomorrow
JenDMB16: i know - beer pong players extrordinaire
Scuttle67: haha
Scuttle67: we rocked!!!
JenDMB16: thanks for coming
JenDMB16: we did
Scuttle67: of course
Scuttle67: i had to
Scuttle67: it's only once that you turn 21
Scuttle67: and someone had to administer you a shot of something
Scuttle67: i was proud
JenDMB16: well ill have to get you back on that one
JenDMB16: thank you
Scuttle67: okay
Scuttle67: goodngiht
Scuttle67: or good morning
Scuttle67: whatever
JenDMB16: both
Scuttle67: SLEEP!!!!
Scuttle67: bye
JenDMB16: in a while
JenDMB16: goodnight colin
JenDMB16: thanks again
JenDMB16: :-)
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