halloween
i have not seen a single little person this holiday weekend. not in costume anyhow. hell, i don't even remember seeing any not in costume.
met lots of interesting people this weekend, we had several people staying here at chateau de filth. four of ben's friends (one of my roommates) and tyler came over from moses hole. everyone went to the kegger on main street, but no matter how much i would like to, beer makes me feel sick. i wish i had prefunked a whole lot harder, cause i was not even drunk enough to dance. tyler had some great moves though-lol. he dressed up in his UPS uniform and i had sewn my own black floor lenght dress with cloak and all that. i put bite marks on my neck and pasty face with blood colored lip stick.
i had been looking forward to his visit since the last time i saw him, at my party two weeks ago. not sure if he wants to like me or not, but right now, he is the top of my list. i met several guys this weekend. he was the only one who did not try and touch me or ask me stupid questions. not that there is anything wrong with those guys, but i think i tend to send pretty clear signals of my intentions.
we went for a walk after the bars. it was kinda strange my hands were actually warm for like the only time in the last couple months it would seem. so good excuse to hold his hand. he has thumbs very similar to mine, which was suprising. if you don't know me, then it is unlikely you know about my special fingers. anyhow, the hand thing reminded me of my grandparents. they met at community college. their first date was at a football game. anyhow, grandpa said that grandma should hold his hand to keep warm, but it was grandma who had the warm hands. i miss them. need to make sure and see them when i am home for thanksgiving.
beyond that, i have joined way too many dating sites-lol. i don't message a lot of people and i find that if you wait for others to message you, then you lose the advantage of choice.
talked to mom on the phone. i guess little josh chose to go as a pumpkin. he picked out his costume from the array laid out on the floor at thriftway. i miss him so bad. mom sent me pictures of him as well as her and doug cause she knew i was feeling down last weekend. it really did help though, i cried when i got them.
anyhow, i get to register for winter quarter in a couple hours. were i a bit smarter, i would be asleep, but i have too much going on in my head. i have not felt this way in a really long time and it can mess with you.
okie, well it is now about 2:30am, so i best be getting to sleep or at least settle down to try. will talk more later.
met lots of interesting people this weekend, we had several people staying here at chateau de filth. four of ben's friends (one of my roommates) and tyler came over from moses hole. everyone went to the kegger on main street, but no matter how much i would like to, beer makes me feel sick. i wish i had prefunked a whole lot harder, cause i was not even drunk enough to dance. tyler had some great moves though-lol. he dressed up in his UPS uniform and i had sewn my own black floor lenght dress with cloak and all that. i put bite marks on my neck and pasty face with blood colored lip stick.
i had been looking forward to his visit since the last time i saw him, at my party two weeks ago. not sure if he wants to like me or not, but right now, he is the top of my list. i met several guys this weekend. he was the only one who did not try and touch me or ask me stupid questions. not that there is anything wrong with those guys, but i think i tend to send pretty clear signals of my intentions.
we went for a walk after the bars. it was kinda strange my hands were actually warm for like the only time in the last couple months it would seem. so good excuse to hold his hand. he has thumbs very similar to mine, which was suprising. if you don't know me, then it is unlikely you know about my special fingers. anyhow, the hand thing reminded me of my grandparents. they met at community college. their first date was at a football game. anyhow, grandpa said that grandma should hold his hand to keep warm, but it was grandma who had the warm hands. i miss them. need to make sure and see them when i am home for thanksgiving.
beyond that, i have joined way too many dating sites-lol. i don't message a lot of people and i find that if you wait for others to message you, then you lose the advantage of choice.
talked to mom on the phone. i guess little josh chose to go as a pumpkin. he picked out his costume from the array laid out on the floor at thriftway. i miss him so bad. mom sent me pictures of him as well as her and doug cause she knew i was feeling down last weekend. it really did help though, i cried when i got them.
anyhow, i get to register for winter quarter in a couple hours. were i a bit smarter, i would be asleep, but i have too much going on in my head. i have not felt this way in a really long time and it can mess with you.
okie, well it is now about 2:30am, so i best be getting to sleep or at least settle down to try. will talk more later.