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Christmas today, another day of arguing and fighting with the relatives. Everyone ignoring the fact that it's supposed to be a day of love and peace.
Played with my baby cousin which put me in a good mood. So much energy those little one's have. She's 4 and decided that she wants to be a professional tennis player so i got her a new racket for christmas. Boy was she exited. After hitting some balls....(bellow the net) we took her little brother sledding.
I'm at the point where i'm wishing I was at 2 places. Part of me wants to stay here but part of me wantsto go back. No challenges here, just....i don't know.
I'm so scared of what might happen to my future. And I'm scared that making the wrong desition will ruin my life. I'm afraid to let people into my life. And i turn away the people I really love(you know who you are.) How are they supposed to know how i feel if i keep backing out and making excuses. It will only be my loss when they want nothing to do with me. It will be another one of those things that i will lay and think about every night...regretting.
Well i'm done babbling now, I'm gonna go with my cousins again. Love you all.
Played with my baby cousin which put me in a good mood. So much energy those little one's have. She's 4 and decided that she wants to be a professional tennis player so i got her a new racket for christmas. Boy was she exited. After hitting some balls....(bellow the net) we took her little brother sledding.
I'm at the point where i'm wishing I was at 2 places. Part of me wants to stay here but part of me wantsto go back. No challenges here, just....i don't know.
I'm so scared of what might happen to my future. And I'm scared that making the wrong desition will ruin my life. I'm afraid to let people into my life. And i turn away the people I really love(you know who you are.) How are they supposed to know how i feel if i keep backing out and making excuses. It will only be my loss when they want nothing to do with me. It will be another one of those things that i will lay and think about every night...regretting.
Well i'm done babbling now, I'm gonna go with my cousins again. Love you all.