And that's still not quite right.
While being told that I was overreacting didn't make me feel better in the moment (and in fact just led to more crying), having had that conversation, I now feel much less terrible. I don't get that sick feeling thinking about it that I did yesterday.
So the only thing I'm sure of is that I do not have this figured out yet. And possibly that I should ask for an outside opinion sooner rather than later.
(Other things contributing to how bad I've been feeling: last week overall I did not stick to my sleep schedule; I missed meds twice; the whole reason I discovered my mistake in the first place was that I'd burned myself rather badly making dinner and was both in pain and missing the use of one hand, making it hard to do anything else; today I got my period and hormones are probably doing their hormone thing on my emotions as well. This did not come out of nowhere. It never does.)
So the only thing I'm sure of is that I do not have this figured out yet. And possibly that I should ask for an outside opinion sooner rather than later.
(Other things contributing to how bad I've been feeling: last week overall I did not stick to my sleep schedule; I missed meds twice; the whole reason I discovered my mistake in the first place was that I'd burned myself rather badly making dinner and was both in pain and missing the use of one hand, making it hard to do anything else; today I got my period and hormones are probably doing their hormone thing on my emotions as well. This did not come out of nowhere. It never does.)