*cries*
I miss this so much...
So I saw this picture today and started bawling.
No not because I look disgusting in the picture, because I do look icky...
But because I miss Sandy so much it's ridictilous.
The past year and a half has truly sucked for the two of us... Everything with that stupid fucking car, and the arguments we had over it... all the stupid bullshit... Loosing my temper with her totally one day... And yea I know She may have deserved it at the time... but it dosen't mean I should of yelled at her. *deep breath*
I keep iming her to try and see if we can fix the damage done...
But she never answers me back.... ever.
She'll IM Andie... but she won't ever ping me.
And as much as I say that, it's her choice, and that it dosen't bother me...
It bothers me.
It hurts.
And whenever I tell a story to some one about somethign that happened in HS.... Or they ask me about my friends in MA....
She the first one that usually pops into my mind.
And then I remember that she dosen't want to be my friend anymore.... And I just feel like crying.
It's almost like she just up and died.
The last time I talked to her, we both agreed that we needed to work on our friendship, especially with all the damage that was done to it with the car thing. She was going to give me the 2 month and the excise., and that was going to be the end of it.
Yea.... that was definatly the end of it...cause I have heard from or seen her since. It was like... everything was ok... and then nothing.
And just like if she had died.... whenever I see a piucture, or remember something we did together...
I fell like I lost my Best friend over and over again...
And it makes me cry.
*deep breath*
This was not a good way to start the first hour of my shift