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i miss the way things used to be before you treated me like i mean nothing
i miss being loved...or at least feeling like i was
YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM NOTHING! and i hate that feeling!
i feel like everyone in the world is treated better then youve treated me the last few weeks
and whether i was a bitch or not...i dont deserve to be treated like im worthless.
all that ever comes out of your mouth is hurtful things.
i never get I love yous
i never get nice things said to me anymore
everything you say hurts me.
and ive held that in for weeks now...so im sorry.
im sorry i put effort into trying to make you happy becuase obviously it was overlooked.
im sorry that i "bore" you....but its not liek you put any effort into making it more exciting.
im sorry that i did everything you ever asked me
and im sorry that i put up with the fact that i never got anything in return.
i dont expect gifts, i dont expect you to take me out, but i would love to be treated like i matter
and you dont seem to be able to do that. i did everything i could for you
and yeah i know, i fucked up a few times, but that doesnt make it right for you to bring it up daily. that doesnt make it right for you to turn every little thing into that. i say one thing and you manage to turn it into something i did wrong.
im so sick of getting hurt all the time.
maybe im just not meant to have anyone love me
mayeb i really am as worthless as every relationship ive ever been in has made me feel
maybe im not "girlfriend material"
everything is my fault
it has to be...or else why would everything go wrong for me
maybe i deserved to be treated teh way chris treated me.
maybe i drove him to it
maybe i deserve to be treated the way tim treated me
which was never terrible
but sometimes quite hurtful
maybe i dotn deserve love.
i should just stop trying
because everything i do is wrong
im glad your happy, i hope you stay that way, im sorry i ruined your life
i miss being loved...or at least feeling like i was
YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM NOTHING! and i hate that feeling!
i feel like everyone in the world is treated better then youve treated me the last few weeks
and whether i was a bitch or not...i dont deserve to be treated like im worthless.
all that ever comes out of your mouth is hurtful things.
i never get I love yous
i never get nice things said to me anymore
everything you say hurts me.
and ive held that in for weeks now...so im sorry.
im sorry i put effort into trying to make you happy becuase obviously it was overlooked.
im sorry that i "bore" you....but its not liek you put any effort into making it more exciting.
im sorry that i did everything you ever asked me
and im sorry that i put up with the fact that i never got anything in return.
i dont expect gifts, i dont expect you to take me out, but i would love to be treated like i matter
and you dont seem to be able to do that. i did everything i could for you
and yeah i know, i fucked up a few times, but that doesnt make it right for you to bring it up daily. that doesnt make it right for you to turn every little thing into that. i say one thing and you manage to turn it into something i did wrong.
im so sick of getting hurt all the time.
maybe im just not meant to have anyone love me
mayeb i really am as worthless as every relationship ive ever been in has made me feel
maybe im not "girlfriend material"
everything is my fault
it has to be...or else why would everything go wrong for me
maybe i deserved to be treated teh way chris treated me.
maybe i drove him to it
maybe i deserve to be treated the way tim treated me
which was never terrible
but sometimes quite hurtful
maybe i dotn deserve love.
i should just stop trying
because everything i do is wrong
im glad your happy, i hope you stay that way, im sorry i ruined your life