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I really dont know how to start this, its been two days since i wrote last and i have to get up in 4 hours. I am finding it harder to eat everytime I do, trying to force myself because I need that food to give me energy but seem to only a little. I went to bed fine last night but woke up this morning early and finding myself thinking to the point where I was just in and out. I think he needs to talk to me not the other way around. Not about what has happened with me and my family but how he has acted towards me. I find it hard to believe and do not expect these things out of him but this is the second time it has hit me and hurt pretty bad. As much as I want to surrender, I will not. I should not surrender to a person who acts like an asshole towards me. They should apologize for acting like one. If I ever wanted to date an asshole or be in a relationship with one, I would have stayed in my previous relationship .. I am very dissapointed in him and I am not even sure if he did apologize to me I would even want to see him or talk to him for awhile. I think he needs to stand up and be brave enough to notice the things that he has done and talk about them with me. If not we shouldnt even be in a relationship. But I am not going to start all conversations or come chasing after him to get him to talk to me. End of story. I dont care how much I have to go through but soon enough I will get stronger and will not have these feelings of sadness, not being able to sleep or eat, while my friends and going to were it brings the fun and rebel out of me.
the end.