A never ending step
So, I have decided on my way home from work that I am going to write everyday, or atleast try like if it was actually a journal that i would keep for myself. It could be impossible but maybe not. Anyways, I had shitty ass sleep, most due to the fact that i couldnt fall asleep and from the thunder storm that decided to wake me up at 2 am. I went back to bed to wake up at 5am and had shitty ass sleep after that. I woke up and then did another homeowners insurance quote from state farm. Those things are crazy, I have no idea what I am doing or what some of the stuff is that they are asking me to click on yes or no.
I looked one up, i think it was identity restoration,which i had no idea what the hell that was and took a guess and said no think. But I just went off the last insurance place that we had to base the facts and to see how much a year would be.Ended up way more then the old place so that one is out of the question. We have until October 5th to get this completed and set up. I guess I am takingt it over since my older sister said I was.
That was great of her to do that( not really) but then again she is not very smart and would probably half ass it and screw us over in the end. So I guess I would rather do it and put another piece of pie on my plate, that will probably be close of throwing it back up. This probably adds more stress on me, but as far as I can tell, my shoulder already weigh me down alot. Is it affecting me? pretty much.
I try to keep it to myself but its hard not to notice when I take things the wrong way, or get offended and snap back. Anyways, I hope it lifts off of me when everything is done but I have a feeling that I wont go back to normal and stay in this state because I own 1/3 of a house soon and getting into things that i normally dont do will be a challenge for sure. hopefully i will survive the madness but too much of it will cause me to say nope and walk out. I had fun at work today, it was boring but i worked with cool people and on the way to work i seen a mattress on the corner of birchrun rd. and gera I think. It was pretty funny so i had my camera in my bag and decided to take a picture.
I will probably post the picture later because i hate doing the whole photobucket crap. SO other things that i have to get done this month is inventory on the garage stuff so that we can hopefully have the estate sale soon so that it can be done with and vikkie can have her 21st party here/ halloween. I am not sure how that will work out but i need to move on it.Soon is happening in 2 months and i need to find out what I want to do more so that i have a better idea then what i have at the moment. I am getting caught up with what i have to do here and work while not taking time for myself to move forward in my life. its catching up to me and i would like to be more at a stage in my life then just sitting here doing house work and not thinking about it. So i do need to take time out of my day and start that asap like i wanted to instead of not doing it.
I guess i just need to use my time better then what i have been doing. so i am pretty excited today that i actually got someone when i got my teeth cleaned that knew what the hell they were doing. I had a dream that i just yelled at the people for giving me such shitty ass people that it could of been why i didnt sleep very good. but in the end, the lady was very nice and helpful about how to brush my wisdom teeth and how much it would be to take them out. I have all 3 in except 1.
weird but i am hoping that it will take its time so that i can get this dental insurance crap straight and find a good plan. I will have to pay out of pocket for the bottom because they are already slightly crowding with only one in. Thats A okay as long as i step up and start looking. I got a quote i believe 6 months ago but i never started it. But I need to and going to pay the whole 6 months out of my pocket when i get paid next. Yes it totally sucks but its the way I have to do things now. And find another job. Well i think this is long enough, till tomorrow.
I looked one up, i think it was identity restoration,which i had no idea what the hell that was and took a guess and said no think. But I just went off the last insurance place that we had to base the facts and to see how much a year would be.Ended up way more then the old place so that one is out of the question. We have until October 5th to get this completed and set up. I guess I am takingt it over since my older sister said I was.
That was great of her to do that( not really) but then again she is not very smart and would probably half ass it and screw us over in the end. So I guess I would rather do it and put another piece of pie on my plate, that will probably be close of throwing it back up. This probably adds more stress on me, but as far as I can tell, my shoulder already weigh me down alot. Is it affecting me? pretty much.
I try to keep it to myself but its hard not to notice when I take things the wrong way, or get offended and snap back. Anyways, I hope it lifts off of me when everything is done but I have a feeling that I wont go back to normal and stay in this state because I own 1/3 of a house soon and getting into things that i normally dont do will be a challenge for sure. hopefully i will survive the madness but too much of it will cause me to say nope and walk out. I had fun at work today, it was boring but i worked with cool people and on the way to work i seen a mattress on the corner of birchrun rd. and gera I think. It was pretty funny so i had my camera in my bag and decided to take a picture.
I will probably post the picture later because i hate doing the whole photobucket crap. SO other things that i have to get done this month is inventory on the garage stuff so that we can hopefully have the estate sale soon so that it can be done with and vikkie can have her 21st party here/ halloween. I am not sure how that will work out but i need to move on it.Soon is happening in 2 months and i need to find out what I want to do more so that i have a better idea then what i have at the moment. I am getting caught up with what i have to do here and work while not taking time for myself to move forward in my life. its catching up to me and i would like to be more at a stage in my life then just sitting here doing house work and not thinking about it. So i do need to take time out of my day and start that asap like i wanted to instead of not doing it.
I guess i just need to use my time better then what i have been doing. so i am pretty excited today that i actually got someone when i got my teeth cleaned that knew what the hell they were doing. I had a dream that i just yelled at the people for giving me such shitty ass people that it could of been why i didnt sleep very good. but in the end, the lady was very nice and helpful about how to brush my wisdom teeth and how much it would be to take them out. I have all 3 in except 1.
weird but i am hoping that it will take its time so that i can get this dental insurance crap straight and find a good plan. I will have to pay out of pocket for the bottom because they are already slightly crowding with only one in. Thats A okay as long as i step up and start looking. I got a quote i believe 6 months ago but i never started it. But I need to and going to pay the whole 6 months out of my pocket when i get paid next. Yes it totally sucks but its the way I have to do things now. And find another job. Well i think this is long enough, till tomorrow.