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I've realized what it is that makes me like rap, hip-hop, techno, and (in it's own catagory because it's what made me realize it) MSI. They're all comforting no matter the situation. When I'm angry, it's either angry with me or it won't matter because of the underlying bass that invariably runs through most of all four. Whenever I'm upset it's so fast that it doesn't let me sit back and dwell on anything. And if I'm in a good mood it's something catchy that lets me do the one thing that I love most, and that's dance. One of my random, seemingly useless talents is that I can choreograph ballet to any sort of music, and no matter how fast or slow or modern seeming, it always has the underlying classicality of my training. And even when I'm angry or frantic or sad, this music begs to be danced to, and it keeps me active, for I keep seeming to find myself alone, or nearly so, in spaces large enough to go wild in. And reading this book* makes me notice how often I react to music. I might not even realize it, but I'm always keeping time or dancing with just my arms, or just my head. And, to my great chagrin, if I'm watching a ballet, I often find myself mimicking the head movements with my own, until I notice and promptly stop. Last night I couldn't sleep, and I kept choreographing things in my head. Which I must say did nothing to help me fall asleep, but was relaxing nonetheless.
Damn, I knew I would miss it, but I didn't know that I would miss it this much.
Damn, I knew I would miss it, but I didn't know that I would miss it this much.