Mar 14, 2007 18:54
one of my family's closest friends passed away yesterday. so much death all around. the fields and flowers and everything is less green this year than it usually is, due to this lack of rain. the weather is so whacked, but summer is creeping up, i cant believe how warm its getting so early, this summer is going to be hottt.
i need to stop getting my hopes up so high, and stop getting so excited about things that arent definite. the job at toni & guy is definitely achievable, but since they are so well known they cant have anyone working for them that doesnt have a license yet, and that will take anywhere in the next two to six months. the other problem with this salon is they have specialized technicians, which means you assist, work, and are educated in one specific area such as cutting or coloring. i was hoping this would work out so i wouldnt really have to make an effort in getting the job, but it turns out im going to have to be very persistent if i want this and i think i would rather start somewhere where i can do a broader range of services and start working sooner if im going to make such an effort. i still really want to move to LA but i think im going to stick to my plan of saving until august and moving and starting work then.
hopefully i can stay motivated and busy until then. i have so many things i want to do this summer but at the same time i want to save alllll my money to move out. hopefully i can set out a saving plan for myself. hopefully hopefully hopefully blah blah blah im going to try and make everything i want for myself happen. im going to make everything i want for myself happen. im capable of achieving anything as long as i put my mind and whole self into it. i need to remind myself of that much more regularly.
woahhh props if you read that whole entry. love love love you all.