stupid idea to prove a point
Wanting to throttle some people on their knowledge and assumptions of EDs. But as I have said I am in recovery from one and am trying to drop my weight a little just for comfort and energy sake. As the competitive rowing season has started I am out on the water every morning for a couple hours training away. I return to university in the fall and want to row for the school. The coach would like me to drop into a lightweight category. This is doable in a healthy manner for me thru strength and cardio work as it is only 10-15lbs.
But I feel I have a point to prove and want to restrict my calories right back down to my ED days. Never going over 800kcal cycling from 200 up to that and down again. Along with training. Just to prove the point that once you hit too low of calorie consumption the body takes over and fights back with a vengence. I know this and I want to prove it and then also prove it can be ebaten. And I want to use myself as the victim to test this out upon, to prove the point. To show the damaging effects.
What am I doing?!?!?! Would someone give me a swift kick? I know this is NOT the way for me to get into form for the fall and if I try this technique I will end back in the hospital for the third time on weight gain protocol. ACKACKACK!!!
But I feel I have a point to prove and want to restrict my calories right back down to my ED days. Never going over 800kcal cycling from 200 up to that and down again. Along with training. Just to prove the point that once you hit too low of calorie consumption the body takes over and fights back with a vengence. I know this and I want to prove it and then also prove it can be ebaten. And I want to use myself as the victim to test this out upon, to prove the point. To show the damaging effects.
What am I doing?!?!?! Would someone give me a swift kick? I know this is NOT the way for me to get into form for the fall and if I try this technique I will end back in the hospital for the third time on weight gain protocol. ACKACKACK!!!