I'm makin history.
This might be my first post in like a year without pictures. Yeh thats right. No cut to pictures this time. I'm in a talking mood. Or rather a typing mood. ya know...well yes.
Do people regret doing things or NOT doing things? Some of both? Which are bigger regrets? I think i regret NOT doing some things in my life more than i regret doing some things. Maybe a lot more. I can think of 1 huge incident that i have not/will not ever get over i dont think. I wish i could go back in time, big time. Like i really wish i could do this over, change how things happened. I wish i wasn't who i was back then, maybe a bit more how i am now. But i can't make it better. I even tried talking to him. I can't. Its very sad, the whole situation is. But oh well.
Also, I wish i didnt have the reputation i do. I wish that i was so studious. or whatever you call it. I dont even study much, so i guess i wish i didnt get good grades? or maybe i wish that i got good grades but no one knew? or sumthing. i dont even know. I just wish people would stop automatically thinking of me as a goody-goody when im not. Or as a wannabe bad person, when im not. or as a wannabe slut, when im not. or as a wannabe smart person, when im not. or even a wanna be dumb person, but i dont think anyone thinks that cause i dont act ditzy pretty much ever. I mean, i wish i didnt have a repuation, or something that automatically springs up when you hear my name. I'm getting tired of being used for help in school and thats ALL. i wish i wasnt such a tool. Like i dont mind helping tons of classmates a day in school, getting tons of phone calls at all hours of day asking for help on chem. or anything else, or getting requests online, or even visits to my locker by random ppl to 'check answers with my worksheet' or sumthing. I dont really mind all that. or maybe i do. i dont know. i wish...that people stoped using me for help with with their grades, then make fun of me for being such a good in school, studying person.
Does anyone get what i mean? I might have even lost myself somewhere in there. Oh well.
So i guess i got mad at someone ive never mad been at before in my life. NO. Make that 2 people. Yep. but like. I guess im not really mad. so it doesnt count. anyways....
On a lighter note, 4 day weekend ahead. I think i'll paint a picture. I've been meaning to start this dusky frame of the Chicago skyline...i might start that.
So...The end?