Apr 18, 2008 23:47
I'm not exactly in the mood for talking, I'm just royally pissed off. It's not really something I'm willing to explain yet, but I just wanted to write a couple of lines. Because when I said I was done with the old shit, I meant it.
I spent the last couple of days hanging out with Alice, an awesome friend of mine. And really, I don't think she knows just how much I freaking love her. Neither do Barbara and Silvia do. Those three amazing girls are the ones who made me understand there is a right place for me to be in the real world. They made me understand that I don't need to write a entry in the journal, hinting that I have shit going on and hoping for the devil knows what. I just have to pick up the phone or simply speak one of the many times we see each other.
I'll probably won't do it 'cause I'm a little bitch who keeps everything inside, but just knowing that no matter what's going on in their life, they're here, it makes me feel better. (But I will actually be all whining and bitchy to Alice 'cause I need to get laid and I can't bring myself to talk to the cute guy from Geography class even if in the past week I ended up sitting next to him on the subway, I met him at the book shop and at class. That's fate, we're meant to talk to each other. But hey, I digress.)
The point is, everyone has shit going on, people tend to forget that, they don't and I don't.
And I know that as long as we're able to spend time together, laugh at silly jokes about phallic objects or other organs, and to snap pictures of FBRguyslooking!us, everything will work out just fine.
All this to say that I'll never thank them enough for all they did for me, even though they probably don't even realize it. Thanks to them I actually love to have a social life, I know I can handle it and I don't need the internet to replace it. Sure, web-friends are awesome, but it's not like you can go out and drink with them. Well, not really often, at least.
Just to be clear, my social life is still quiet, 'cause I changed, yeah, but not that much yet. I'm still a gigantic nerd, but I know that if I had to choose between a night out with the girls or a night in with internet, well, I'd totally go for the night out.
So yeah, I love you girls! <3
Yeah, I know I said I wasn't in the mood for talking, but whatever.
Now that I think about it, I'm not just pissed. I'm downright fucking angry. I don't know why, I don't know what set it off, I'm just angry at everything right now. I'm probably not getting enough caffeine again. But you know, writing here always makes it better. Now I'll go listen to some music and calm my nerves down (which means I'll go get caffeine and who the fuck cares about sleeping, anyway?).
I know some of you might ask if I want to talk, but I'd rather not. I know I'll calm down in a few minutes, and I'll forget it and I'll be happy again until rage finds a way out again. So thank you, really, but no.
Peace,
JM.
thoughts,
my life,
friends