Here it goes, at least I have the balls to say it all (I may be rude but I'm the truth)
I just wrote this on twitter, but I feel like I should express this in more than 140 characters at a time.
I'm mostly out of the soccerdom fanfiction business, at least for now, I don't have a new fandom and I'm not looking too hard for it. I'm really kind of busy with real life and I need to work on real projects right now. I'm not saying I won't be writing, I'll write what I feel like writing and when I have time to (yes, it includes soccerdom and bandom). You might have guessed that by looking at my journal.
Anyway, I've been through some stuff this summer, not as bad as it could have been and thank God for that, literally, but let's just say it wasn't the best summer of my life. And that made me understand a few things. Mostly that I have to prioritize, and also I've been reminded that validation is only valuable if it comes from someone you somehow admire or respect. For some reason I've wanted some people to like me, people I don't give a fuck about and that is really annoying, because I waste a lot of time. I only really care about two or three people in my weblife and that's who I'm gonna focus on from now on. Again, I'm not gonna drop off the face of earth, I don't see why I should, but surely I'll pay much less attention to some people.
I just need myself and my family, I don't need fake people who are all friendly friends when I work my butt off to organize a trip to London or anywhere else, but don't even remember my birthday in time, and most importantly, don't even talk to me for months without an explanation. At least have the balls to tell to my face that you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore. That's for you, faechan .
And with this I think I've said all I've been holding back for months and I don't even know why I kept it back. And of course I won't be discussing this further, because I don't have to and I don't give a fuck anymore.
Oh, and as my husband says: if you don't like what I say, just put it in your blog, I promise no one even gives a fuck.
Fangs up, world
JM
ps: one of my best friends moved to London today and I wanna wish her the bestest best. She won't read this, because she lost her LJ password (*facepalm*), but she wouldn't care where I wrote it, she knows I love her and that's all that matters.
I'm mostly out of the soccerdom fanfiction business, at least for now, I don't have a new fandom and I'm not looking too hard for it. I'm really kind of busy with real life and I need to work on real projects right now. I'm not saying I won't be writing, I'll write what I feel like writing and when I have time to (yes, it includes soccerdom and bandom). You might have guessed that by looking at my journal.
Anyway, I've been through some stuff this summer, not as bad as it could have been and thank God for that, literally, but let's just say it wasn't the best summer of my life. And that made me understand a few things. Mostly that I have to prioritize, and also I've been reminded that validation is only valuable if it comes from someone you somehow admire or respect. For some reason I've wanted some people to like me, people I don't give a fuck about and that is really annoying, because I waste a lot of time. I only really care about two or three people in my weblife and that's who I'm gonna focus on from now on. Again, I'm not gonna drop off the face of earth, I don't see why I should, but surely I'll pay much less attention to some people.
I just need myself and my family, I don't need fake people who are all friendly friends when I work my butt off to organize a trip to London or anywhere else, but don't even remember my birthday in time, and most importantly, don't even talk to me for months without an explanation. At least have the balls to tell to my face that you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore. That's for you, faechan .
And with this I think I've said all I've been holding back for months and I don't even know why I kept it back. And of course I won't be discussing this further, because I don't have to and I don't give a fuck anymore.
Oh, and as my husband says: if you don't like what I say, just put it in your blog, I promise no one even gives a fuck.
Fangs up, world
JM
ps: one of my best friends moved to London today and I wanna wish her the bestest best. She won't read this, because she lost her LJ password (*facepalm*), but she wouldn't care where I wrote it, she knows I love her and that's all that matters.