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things suck... i havent been this unhappy for a long time and im mad at myself bc of it. One thing happens and it brings me down completely. i wish he wouldnt have told me so i would actually ahve a reason to be mad when i found out and not hate myself bc of it. i feel guilty and bad and i dont want 2. i wish things were normal and that i could get over it. why am i being punished for somethign i ahve no control over?