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latley i have been thinking alot, just about everything.. life in general.. and the more i think the more lost and lonely i feel. i dont kno its really hard to explain.. plus it seems that more and more stuff gets dropped on my shoulders and it just keeps adding up and no matter what i do i cant live up to everyones expectations - i just cant and for once in my life i would just love to forget about all the shit going on and just do something for me and not have to worry about everyone else and i kno alot of people probably think that i have it so good or whatever but there are alot of things that they dont see and dont know about.. i mean how long can i just keep going before i break? but knowing me ill just grin and bear it and continue to let people walk all over me i dunno, o yeah its christmas.. and it was actually pretty good.. i dunno why i am sittin here complaining hopefully over time things will just get a lil better and easier to handle... i dunno if anyone still reads this but if so i hope u have a great christmas......until next time..