3590.3: Feel The Night
I'm tempted to paste in the notes I've been taking of stuff that comes up on XM that I need to hear again and/or acquire, before some freak accident wipes them [gave up Notepadsync, and the default notepad doesn't export], but I'm lazy [would need to fuss with posting from mobile, which is hassleous]. Also, somehow I feel like I'm giving something away... you know, that possessive feeling as though SOMEHOW I'm the only one who's found these EVAR and it's my special treasure?
*shrug*
On that note, I finally looked up pricing to continue my XM subscription... minimum $10/month, for the cheapest package that includes the three channels I'd bother keeping + maybe NPR. Ugh, I can't possibly justify paying more for radio than for MY PHONE [$20/90-day period], especially when it's only radio in my car and additional in-house sets are $8/month on top of the $10! PASS.
Anyway, subject line relevance... Continuing from my prior post [insert link/back button here], I also feel vaguely nostalgic for my family reunion, something that happened when I was like ten and never happened since. The reason ties into field trip/vacation nostalgia in that I lost sleep.
This is the odd thing about me*: While I do hate that tired-hangover feeling when I have to get up after having had little rest, I really like the feeling of waking up in the middle of the night and being unable to fall asleep again straight away [which may explain why I do it so often]. This is the short-term version of the "I am free of all obligations" feeling of being on a field trip, that it is 100% Me Time and--theoretically--stress-free.
*in this regards--I'm painfully aware there are MANY odd things about me
Naturally, I have times where I can't relax, and I lose that Zen of simply existing in the moment without care, but lost sleep throughout my lifetime has for the most part been an existential nirvana where--for this moment--nothing matters and I am at peace with the world.
So, while my brother and I were plopped onto a cold, hard floor in the living room next to a fish tank because all the grown-ups took up the beds, I do miss that sometimes due to the sheer peace I attained being there. I ended up feeling relaxed in a lot of awful, uncomfortable places as a result, just as a combination of "This is Me Time" and resignation of control.
[unfortunately, this does not include most car seats... another reason ihatedriving]
I wrote today, but only a few odd sentences that round out already written parts while completely ignoring the gaps. I'm never finishing this book... T_T [Something I've debated is going to the next most finishable book, but I think I prefer this order on the off-chance someone actually reads them all as I finish them... aagh, arbitrary values!]
Speaking of losing sleep... =_= naite
*shrug*
On that note, I finally looked up pricing to continue my XM subscription... minimum $10/month, for the cheapest package that includes the three channels I'd bother keeping + maybe NPR. Ugh, I can't possibly justify paying more for radio than for MY PHONE [$20/90-day period], especially when it's only radio in my car and additional in-house sets are $8/month on top of the $10! PASS.
Anyway, subject line relevance... Continuing from my prior post [insert link/back button here], I also feel vaguely nostalgic for my family reunion, something that happened when I was like ten and never happened since. The reason ties into field trip/vacation nostalgia in that I lost sleep.
This is the odd thing about me*: While I do hate that tired-hangover feeling when I have to get up after having had little rest, I really like the feeling of waking up in the middle of the night and being unable to fall asleep again straight away [which may explain why I do it so often]. This is the short-term version of the "I am free of all obligations" feeling of being on a field trip, that it is 100% Me Time and--theoretically--stress-free.
*in this regards--I'm painfully aware there are MANY odd things about me
Naturally, I have times where I can't relax, and I lose that Zen of simply existing in the moment without care, but lost sleep throughout my lifetime has for the most part been an existential nirvana where--for this moment--nothing matters and I am at peace with the world.
So, while my brother and I were plopped onto a cold, hard floor in the living room next to a fish tank because all the grown-ups took up the beds, I do miss that sometimes due to the sheer peace I attained being there. I ended up feeling relaxed in a lot of awful, uncomfortable places as a result, just as a combination of "This is Me Time" and resignation of control.
[unfortunately, this does not include most car seats... another reason ihatedriving]
I wrote today, but only a few odd sentences that round out already written parts while completely ignoring the gaps. I'm never finishing this book... T_T [Something I've debated is going to the next most finishable book, but I think I prefer this order on the off-chance someone actually reads them all as I finish them... aagh, arbitrary values!]
Speaking of losing sleep... =_= naite