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I had a good day today. I played so many games of chess it was just stupid. I won a lot of them too, but as I told someone earlier, I do not play chess in a competitive way. I play for the feelings it gives me, for the fun and charge I get wither I win or lose. A day with almost ten chess games is a good one.
1-2-3 Not It! played Gilman for the Shakey Bones/Jason Webley show. It was very well attended. It was the debut of Sparrow playing with us, playing the viola. We played well and I had fun. I only messed up one song, and didn't lose the beat in my mess up (which is horrible when the banjo player does) but just missed some notes on the hard part. I have a recording of it and hope it still sounds good, because its a honey of a tune.
I forget how lonely Gilman can make me. My peeps left almost right away. Michael came and he left to go to sleep, as he wakes up super early for work. Brian left as soon as we finished too, as he's heading to Oregon for the week. Holidays, I guess. Housemate Don and his lovely girlfriend, MC, disappeared right after we played and I didn't seen them the rest of the night either.
At the same time, lots and lots of good peeps were there. Ben, Jen-and-Jordan, Ariel, and you know, The Kids. I was feeling not involved with a group. That sort of loneliness, where there are friends all around but you're just visiting. Or feeling that way, anyways. I walked to BART rather than kick it.
At North Berkeley BART I ran into Zack, the singer of Shakey Bones. He had disappeared as well, and I imagined he was off drinking with his friends, having a good time. It was ironic I found him crying at BART. He was feeling wicked lonely and lost too, and conflicted at having performed an excellent show that he felt was put forth some what falsely. We had an interesting conversation and it put my own feelings in perspective. I was good to connect with someone too.
Zack is a troubled young man. I've always known this. All of his songs are about how sad and lonely and bored he is. They're effective. The best sad songs are the ones like his: really diving into insecurity, with out hinting at self pity and laughing at it. He says people tell him his songs are so happy sounding and he says they aren't paying attention. But they ARE happy sounding. Maybe not happy. Excited and up beat, absolutely. That's how I view him too. He bares his heart to me about his loneliness and I laugh. He's a charming young man, that's for sure.
1-2-3 Not It! played Gilman for the Shakey Bones/Jason Webley show. It was very well attended. It was the debut of Sparrow playing with us, playing the viola. We played well and I had fun. I only messed up one song, and didn't lose the beat in my mess up (which is horrible when the banjo player does) but just missed some notes on the hard part. I have a recording of it and hope it still sounds good, because its a honey of a tune.
I forget how lonely Gilman can make me. My peeps left almost right away. Michael came and he left to go to sleep, as he wakes up super early for work. Brian left as soon as we finished too, as he's heading to Oregon for the week. Holidays, I guess. Housemate Don and his lovely girlfriend, MC, disappeared right after we played and I didn't seen them the rest of the night either.
At the same time, lots and lots of good peeps were there. Ben, Jen-and-Jordan, Ariel, and you know, The Kids. I was feeling not involved with a group. That sort of loneliness, where there are friends all around but you're just visiting. Or feeling that way, anyways. I walked to BART rather than kick it.
At North Berkeley BART I ran into Zack, the singer of Shakey Bones. He had disappeared as well, and I imagined he was off drinking with his friends, having a good time. It was ironic I found him crying at BART. He was feeling wicked lonely and lost too, and conflicted at having performed an excellent show that he felt was put forth some what falsely. We had an interesting conversation and it put my own feelings in perspective. I was good to connect with someone too.
Zack is a troubled young man. I've always known this. All of his songs are about how sad and lonely and bored he is. They're effective. The best sad songs are the ones like his: really diving into insecurity, with out hinting at self pity and laughing at it. He says people tell him his songs are so happy sounding and he says they aren't paying attention. But they ARE happy sounding. Maybe not happy. Excited and up beat, absolutely. That's how I view him too. He bares his heart to me about his loneliness and I laugh. He's a charming young man, that's for sure.