The love of my life
I got a certain phone call from a certain girl today. She was highly upset that I had not mentioned her in my last post which was the first update in my Livejournal since Ronald Reagan could still spell words with alphabet soup. Anyways, for those who aren't in the know and I don't know who would be reading this that doesn't know her, I just wanted to give credit where credit is due to Amy Surface (paperinfire on LJ). Amy was understandably upset that I hadn't said anything but honestly I feel like just making her into a byline sandwiched between a concert and a recent cosmetic upgrade really wouldn't do her justice. So I'm going to take this time, in a public forum, to let the world know what I think of this girl.
It was probably about four to five months after I "met" Amy that I actually met her in person. We both met online in kind of a fluke way and began talking. We were both actually in relationships at the time and sort of came together semi-venting about what we were unhappy with in life. We met with the possible expectation that we could have a physical relationship. Neither of us could have ever anticipated what came out of actually meeting in person. When I first laid eyes on Amy, which was in the Spring of 2003, I was floored. I honestly thought for a second that she was going to say that she had the wrong apartment because of the "ugo" standing at the door. I had to keep pinching myself when she didn't leave. So then I thought that maybe she was being polite. And she stayed. Amy was GORGEOUS (and she still is...moreso actually). She stayed. And we kissed...and things proceeded from there. She had second thoughts about where things were going after that and was going to cut me off but...for some reason she didn't. After our second encounter, we went to dinner and I believe this was when I began falling head over heels in love with her. She spoke and she floored me. Amy was articulate, cheerful, open-minded, opinionated, very well read, polite, humorous, coy, charismatic, brilliant...I could go on and on and on but the point is is that this person had it going on in every way, shape and form. As physical beings and living in a very material culture we tend to gravitate towards the outward shell that we all inhabit when sizing people up. I was VERY much attracted to the outward person, but it is when I got to know who she was on the INSIDE that I was almost in disbelief. I remember having a feeling of utter bliss in being in her presence. She had this amber energy that captivated me and I fell HARD. I also had to make a very difficult decision, being in a relationship. Do I stay where I'm at and let this girl go or do I tempt fate and move out of my familiar environment, taking a chance with someone who could totally reject me and not have a concern in the world? I fell in love with the person I met through and through. I admired her. I was blown away by her personality. I wanted to know everything about every facet of her life. And to this day, that still rings true, although I've learned that you don't want to rush Christmas in a relationship or force the flowers to come up in Spring. Let her be herself and reveal herself to you bit by bit. I really can't express in words how deeply I love Amy, or how much I respect her as an individual, or how utterly devastated I would be to lose her. Amy is my light, my love, my everything. We have been together for almost a year now as the timeline is subject to date, but I can say that the bliss I have felt has never subsided and will never subsided. This IS being in love and being in love to me is one of the primary reasons we are given a chance to experience life. Amy IS my soul mate. Amy is the reason that people would WANT to get married. Amy is the person I would go to any length to help in a time of need. And I know she will also be there for me and she is there to meet my needs. We have come through many challenges together and it is the strength of our love that has kept us afloat. For any of you reading this that thinks this is utterly sappy and whatever, fuck you. This isn't for you. This is from me to Amy. This is me saying, "I love you more than life itself and without you my life is without purpose." If you ever have any doubts about how genuine my love is for you, then you have gotten crossed signals at some point. We tend to do that at times...Cancer to Aquarius and back. You are my everything Amy. I feel that you are a part of me. You are in everything I do. Even in my latest screenplay idea, the lead character is an Aquarius and she has her eyes on a boy who happens to be a Cancer. I can't see the world and the beauty in it without seeing you reflected in those things that I value. My favorite quote, although I never knew why, is from John Keats: "A thing of beauty is a joy forever." Amy is not a thing to me. She is not a convenience. She is not arm dressing (I'm a jealous guy and she should know from experience that I'm really not in the business of showing her off!). She is not a distraction. Amy is my strength. She has the strongest heart I've ever known. She's a big person of short stature. Amy's love is unconditional. After I met Amy, I really came to understand the meaning behind his quote. Amy, in my eyes IS true beauty and the joy we share in our relationship will last forever. There's something to be said about finding your soul mate. I love you baby. I just wanted you to know...
xoxoxo
Your Jeremy
It was probably about four to five months after I "met" Amy that I actually met her in person. We both met online in kind of a fluke way and began talking. We were both actually in relationships at the time and sort of came together semi-venting about what we were unhappy with in life. We met with the possible expectation that we could have a physical relationship. Neither of us could have ever anticipated what came out of actually meeting in person. When I first laid eyes on Amy, which was in the Spring of 2003, I was floored. I honestly thought for a second that she was going to say that she had the wrong apartment because of the "ugo" standing at the door. I had to keep pinching myself when she didn't leave. So then I thought that maybe she was being polite. And she stayed. Amy was GORGEOUS (and she still is...moreso actually). She stayed. And we kissed...and things proceeded from there. She had second thoughts about where things were going after that and was going to cut me off but...for some reason she didn't. After our second encounter, we went to dinner and I believe this was when I began falling head over heels in love with her. She spoke and she floored me. Amy was articulate, cheerful, open-minded, opinionated, very well read, polite, humorous, coy, charismatic, brilliant...I could go on and on and on but the point is is that this person had it going on in every way, shape and form. As physical beings and living in a very material culture we tend to gravitate towards the outward shell that we all inhabit when sizing people up. I was VERY much attracted to the outward person, but it is when I got to know who she was on the INSIDE that I was almost in disbelief. I remember having a feeling of utter bliss in being in her presence. She had this amber energy that captivated me and I fell HARD. I also had to make a very difficult decision, being in a relationship. Do I stay where I'm at and let this girl go or do I tempt fate and move out of my familiar environment, taking a chance with someone who could totally reject me and not have a concern in the world? I fell in love with the person I met through and through. I admired her. I was blown away by her personality. I wanted to know everything about every facet of her life. And to this day, that still rings true, although I've learned that you don't want to rush Christmas in a relationship or force the flowers to come up in Spring. Let her be herself and reveal herself to you bit by bit. I really can't express in words how deeply I love Amy, or how much I respect her as an individual, or how utterly devastated I would be to lose her. Amy is my light, my love, my everything. We have been together for almost a year now as the timeline is subject to date, but I can say that the bliss I have felt has never subsided and will never subsided. This IS being in love and being in love to me is one of the primary reasons we are given a chance to experience life. Amy IS my soul mate. Amy is the reason that people would WANT to get married. Amy is the person I would go to any length to help in a time of need. And I know she will also be there for me and she is there to meet my needs. We have come through many challenges together and it is the strength of our love that has kept us afloat. For any of you reading this that thinks this is utterly sappy and whatever, fuck you. This isn't for you. This is from me to Amy. This is me saying, "I love you more than life itself and without you my life is without purpose." If you ever have any doubts about how genuine my love is for you, then you have gotten crossed signals at some point. We tend to do that at times...Cancer to Aquarius and back. You are my everything Amy. I feel that you are a part of me. You are in everything I do. Even in my latest screenplay idea, the lead character is an Aquarius and she has her eyes on a boy who happens to be a Cancer. I can't see the world and the beauty in it without seeing you reflected in those things that I value. My favorite quote, although I never knew why, is from John Keats: "A thing of beauty is a joy forever." Amy is not a thing to me. She is not a convenience. She is not arm dressing (I'm a jealous guy and she should know from experience that I'm really not in the business of showing her off!). She is not a distraction. Amy is my strength. She has the strongest heart I've ever known. She's a big person of short stature. Amy's love is unconditional. After I met Amy, I really came to understand the meaning behind his quote. Amy, in my eyes IS true beauty and the joy we share in our relationship will last forever. There's something to be said about finding your soul mate. I love you baby. I just wanted you to know...
xoxoxo
Your Jeremy