the furthest planet in orbit.
lately i've been contemplating going home to the east coast. i've been in CA for over a year now, done pretty well and started to figure myself out all over againb. it's been hard bc i'm only now really making friends, only now find jobs thaqt i really want to work, only now getting to know the rest of cali or even what sf is about. when i gave myself a year to settle into CA i took for granted how long it REALLY took me to settle into boston, and even with that, i had to go home for three monthes after my freshmen year before i realized how much i needed to live in new england.
so maybe i havent given myself enough credit for how much i've really accomplished here becuase i've been longing for what i had before i left.
my apartment is dank! by far the nicest place i've lived since really going out on my own.
I LIVE IN SAN FRANCISCO! which is beautiful, the fresh air is amazing, the poeple can sometimes be obnoxiously hipster (and seem not to grow out of it no matter how old they get) but are still cooler as a community than any other city i've ever lived.
there is always always always something to do (no matter how broke u are).
u don't freeze ur ass off every winter
in
and
out (omg in and out)
the pacific northwest is cool as hell
the food is fresh, healthy, and amazing!
i feel like ive just been really wrapped up in the past and really upset becuase things are changing back home. my friends have new lives and different people in them. people are litterally growing up and i'm not there to do it with them. but that was happening when i was there too. things were already changing and not all for the better. the water in the fishbowl got too low and we had to jump out and into a pond. its big and scarey and really fuicking expensive. but theres something here that i just have to let unfold. its hard bc im impatient. i want things to be perfect now and they seem like they're not happening fast enough. but all i can do is roll with it rite? i guess the point is,life is happening to me and it's going to no matter where i am, so why not explore someplace new while i explore myself right?
i've also stopped thinking about all the awesome things i have planned to do in sf. its like i just remembered it and feel excited again. for instance i want to:
explore the pacific northwest (and have started too)
go do design school
party at some of the best partees in the usa
explore the southwest
get my liscene (december goal)
fisih my tattoos
get contacts
go back down to LA and see star
get a car
deck out that shitbox and drive my ass acorss the country to visit.
not a bad wishlist. and very comforting to know i have awesome feats awaiting conquest.
so i guess i'll just keep my head up, look forward and take it one step at a time, even if it does require fumbling around a lil at first.
so maybe i havent given myself enough credit for how much i've really accomplished here becuase i've been longing for what i had before i left.
my apartment is dank! by far the nicest place i've lived since really going out on my own.
I LIVE IN SAN FRANCISCO! which is beautiful, the fresh air is amazing, the poeple can sometimes be obnoxiously hipster (and seem not to grow out of it no matter how old they get) but are still cooler as a community than any other city i've ever lived.
there is always always always something to do (no matter how broke u are).
u don't freeze ur ass off every winter
in
and
out (omg in and out)
the pacific northwest is cool as hell
the food is fresh, healthy, and amazing!
i feel like ive just been really wrapped up in the past and really upset becuase things are changing back home. my friends have new lives and different people in them. people are litterally growing up and i'm not there to do it with them. but that was happening when i was there too. things were already changing and not all for the better. the water in the fishbowl got too low and we had to jump out and into a pond. its big and scarey and really fuicking expensive. but theres something here that i just have to let unfold. its hard bc im impatient. i want things to be perfect now and they seem like they're not happening fast enough. but all i can do is roll with it rite? i guess the point is,life is happening to me and it's going to no matter where i am, so why not explore someplace new while i explore myself right?
i've also stopped thinking about all the awesome things i have planned to do in sf. its like i just remembered it and feel excited again. for instance i want to:
explore the pacific northwest (and have started too)
go do design school
party at some of the best partees in the usa
explore the southwest
get my liscene (december goal)
fisih my tattoos
get contacts
go back down to LA and see star
get a car
deck out that shitbox and drive my ass acorss the country to visit.
not a bad wishlist. and very comforting to know i have awesome feats awaiting conquest.
so i guess i'll just keep my head up, look forward and take it one step at a time, even if it does require fumbling around a lil at first.