is there anybody out there?
yowsa its been a while. i guess i should just startf rom the beginning. i was fishing around online trying to gather up remnants and remainders of my sordid past and came across lj. gotta give them credit, who else will keep ur account active after about a year of inactivity.
i guess this who thing started with myspace. the kub fell asleep on the couch and im bored and awake, and lately a lil restless. so i started investigating. what who when where why how have i been living my life since i started consciously living?
i just feel lie ive been havin fun up until this point but im stuck in this rut. things are moving, but so slowly. and im havinga hard time dealing with that. or maybe dealing with the direction im movin in at all.when i was in school, in fact during the happy times of my life, so far, i kept one thing in mind "baby steps."
since ive lost sight of that ive been exhausting myself trying to take this big leaps and bounds, trying to prove myself constantly. to whom? to myself,e veryone else, everyone who ever thought iwas worthless? who knows.
now i dont kno what i want, im holdin on the a glimmer of a dream, wondering if im doing this rite or wrong. listening to all the wrong things, letting my intuition get cluttered and denounced by gossip and drama.
one step at a time.
i just want to be for a while. im burning out and i need some rest.
i need and easy job, good pay, and a chance to chill.
after all its my life, shouldnt i do things my way?
mmm
here's to drifting happily downstream.
crystal
i guess this who thing started with myspace. the kub fell asleep on the couch and im bored and awake, and lately a lil restless. so i started investigating. what who when where why how have i been living my life since i started consciously living?
i just feel lie ive been havin fun up until this point but im stuck in this rut. things are moving, but so slowly. and im havinga hard time dealing with that. or maybe dealing with the direction im movin in at all.when i was in school, in fact during the happy times of my life, so far, i kept one thing in mind "baby steps."
since ive lost sight of that ive been exhausting myself trying to take this big leaps and bounds, trying to prove myself constantly. to whom? to myself,e veryone else, everyone who ever thought iwas worthless? who knows.
now i dont kno what i want, im holdin on the a glimmer of a dream, wondering if im doing this rite or wrong. listening to all the wrong things, letting my intuition get cluttered and denounced by gossip and drama.
one step at a time.
i just want to be for a while. im burning out and i need some rest.
i need and easy job, good pay, and a chance to chill.
after all its my life, shouldnt i do things my way?
mmm
here's to drifting happily downstream.
crystal