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i'm so confused. i miss two people in different ways, and for different reasons.
i'm so stuck in a dream state that i can't tell the dreams from reality. my heart hurts because i cant seperate feelings from lack there of, and i tear myself apart for past happenings and wish things went down differently.
i have so much love inside me, i have so much need to share it. i miss having you to share this with, you made me feel so complete and reality was always a sure thing with you. when i think about our past i don't think of the bad things, i only think about the times where you made me laugh and feel like a person i forgot was around.. i wish i could feel like that person without you but i can never seen to grab at it for long enough to keep it.
i think about you everyday, everything reminds me of you, i can't peel myself away from thinking about you, thinking about what should have happened, might of happened, could still happen. i know i just sound bizarre and crazy and maybe a little stalkerish, but this feelings were pushed around for a while, and brought back by strange circumstances.
i just want to wake up and have you close, have you remind me why i feel this way in the first place.
i hate waking up one day and realizing your so in love with someone who you gave away, and now they live across the country and you can't even speak to them. im sad.
i'm so stuck in a dream state that i can't tell the dreams from reality. my heart hurts because i cant seperate feelings from lack there of, and i tear myself apart for past happenings and wish things went down differently.
i have so much love inside me, i have so much need to share it. i miss having you to share this with, you made me feel so complete and reality was always a sure thing with you. when i think about our past i don't think of the bad things, i only think about the times where you made me laugh and feel like a person i forgot was around.. i wish i could feel like that person without you but i can never seen to grab at it for long enough to keep it.
i think about you everyday, everything reminds me of you, i can't peel myself away from thinking about you, thinking about what should have happened, might of happened, could still happen. i know i just sound bizarre and crazy and maybe a little stalkerish, but this feelings were pushed around for a while, and brought back by strange circumstances.
i just want to wake up and have you close, have you remind me why i feel this way in the first place.
i hate waking up one day and realizing your so in love with someone who you gave away, and now they live across the country and you can't even speak to them. im sad.