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i had an anxiety attack today.. i haven't had one probably in a year or so. and never one like this. i was at work and that made it even worse, i've always been at home or somewhere i can just .. go to home easily from.
i tried to skip it or get around it and it made it even worse. im still upset about it, i started crying and now everyone at my work thinks i am insane. everytime i've ever had an anxiety attack my mom is always around somewhere and can calm me down and help me out, and it made me feel so awful to go through that all by myself and have to walk home in the dark to get over it on my own.
i have no idea why i had one, i forgot how awful it feels and i am still so jittery and confused about it. i don't even have my phone to call my mom, which is all i need right now. what a gross feeling, i can't even shake it off. i don't have scotts phone number because it's on my lost phone, he can't call me and he doesn't have a computer to get my email. i hope he stops by tonight, i need a hug so bad.
my complaining that i deserve.
i tried to skip it or get around it and it made it even worse. im still upset about it, i started crying and now everyone at my work thinks i am insane. everytime i've ever had an anxiety attack my mom is always around somewhere and can calm me down and help me out, and it made me feel so awful to go through that all by myself and have to walk home in the dark to get over it on my own.
i have no idea why i had one, i forgot how awful it feels and i am still so jittery and confused about it. i don't even have my phone to call my mom, which is all i need right now. what a gross feeling, i can't even shake it off. i don't have scotts phone number because it's on my lost phone, he can't call me and he doesn't have a computer to get my email. i hope he stops by tonight, i need a hug so bad.
my complaining that i deserve.