my turn to write
you guys please rent the documentary "Rize" it's sooooo good. you can get it at blockbuster. it's about black youth that live in south central LA and instead of being gangbangers, they decide to be clowns. so, there's all these different clown groups and they battle eachother thru dance. it's so beautiful! there is something that's totally inside of me for this dancing and these youth. i cried so much while i watched this.
on the up and up, i have an interview tomorrow at a fine dining restaurant in milwaukee which is about 30 minutes away from my parent's house. my cousin is a flight attendant and is hardly home and she said i could live with her in milwaukee if i would take care of her cats. so i went into milwaukee a couple weeks ago and my cousin drove me around and applied at places. so this fine dining place seems super cool. it's new and very upscale and the general manager seems cool. his name is rick manchez. i'm meeting with him tomorrow to discuss hours and that. the only thing is that i might have to leave soon to work on this film that's due to start shooting sometime in february. i'm not going to let rick know about this because the truth is that i don't know for sure when i'm leaving. i mean, at any minute things could fall thru or be a go. for those of you who don't know, i was also hired to work on a richard gere film. this one won't start shooting til maybe may or june. it's in winnipeg. so once again, i'll be in canada, which i'm so excited about. i love my people, but i love the people of canada as well. man, i'm so glad i went to school out of state. it's just totally opened my heart up to my brothers and sisters up north! no lie, no lie. so, anyway, i was fortunate enough to have lived with a woman during my stay in vancouver who is from winnipeg and her best friend lives in winnipeg. so when i go, i'll be staying with her and i guess she lives right down town. also, i'm pretty excited because i guess the art scene in winnipeg is pretty cool. i've just been reading about it a little.
although it seems like things are turning out really cool for me, there is still a lot of waiting and that is really hard for me. i can honestly say, this has been a true time of character development. God pointed out to me the other day how much i throw tantrums. you would never know it on the outside, but on the inside, i just totally freak out. it's little things like, "what, i can't leave to go to the film yet! why do i always have to wait? no one gives a shit about me. no one even cares that i'm alive or that i have all these incredible talents. don't they get it that i'm perfect for the job?" instead of being patient and simply trusting God, i totally freak out and act like i'm entitled to everything. so ridiculous and there's just absolutely no place for this if i'm ever to direct films or take on more responsiblities. i have to have patience. i owe it to my co-workers at most. so, this character building has been hard, but good and necessary.
one more thing that i've been contemplating: i've never thought of myself as a career woman. and i know that with that phrase comes all these connotations like business suit and new york and tall buildings and shrewdness. but i'm not that type of career woman. i'm the type that has a vision and i don't want to settle for anything less, but to see that vision fulfilled. i feel like if i were to settle, half of me would pass away. i want to see people in the film industry know that they're loved and cherished.
christa, i'm so excited about your life. go for it. hopefully i'll get to meet you sometime hermana.
evan, miss you love you carrying you in my heart
heidi, um, let's see, okay, i found it. your name is actually a derivitive of the name hilda and the origin of that name is Teutonic and the meaning of that is "battle maiden" i will carry on about this in my response to you via myspace.
evan, have you learned anything about linux?
love to you all.
colleen
ps i would really like to enter a poetry slam sometime. heidi, i think you would be so good at that.
on the up and up, i have an interview tomorrow at a fine dining restaurant in milwaukee which is about 30 minutes away from my parent's house. my cousin is a flight attendant and is hardly home and she said i could live with her in milwaukee if i would take care of her cats. so i went into milwaukee a couple weeks ago and my cousin drove me around and applied at places. so this fine dining place seems super cool. it's new and very upscale and the general manager seems cool. his name is rick manchez. i'm meeting with him tomorrow to discuss hours and that. the only thing is that i might have to leave soon to work on this film that's due to start shooting sometime in february. i'm not going to let rick know about this because the truth is that i don't know for sure when i'm leaving. i mean, at any minute things could fall thru or be a go. for those of you who don't know, i was also hired to work on a richard gere film. this one won't start shooting til maybe may or june. it's in winnipeg. so once again, i'll be in canada, which i'm so excited about. i love my people, but i love the people of canada as well. man, i'm so glad i went to school out of state. it's just totally opened my heart up to my brothers and sisters up north! no lie, no lie. so, anyway, i was fortunate enough to have lived with a woman during my stay in vancouver who is from winnipeg and her best friend lives in winnipeg. so when i go, i'll be staying with her and i guess she lives right down town. also, i'm pretty excited because i guess the art scene in winnipeg is pretty cool. i've just been reading about it a little.
although it seems like things are turning out really cool for me, there is still a lot of waiting and that is really hard for me. i can honestly say, this has been a true time of character development. God pointed out to me the other day how much i throw tantrums. you would never know it on the outside, but on the inside, i just totally freak out. it's little things like, "what, i can't leave to go to the film yet! why do i always have to wait? no one gives a shit about me. no one even cares that i'm alive or that i have all these incredible talents. don't they get it that i'm perfect for the job?" instead of being patient and simply trusting God, i totally freak out and act like i'm entitled to everything. so ridiculous and there's just absolutely no place for this if i'm ever to direct films or take on more responsiblities. i have to have patience. i owe it to my co-workers at most. so, this character building has been hard, but good and necessary.
one more thing that i've been contemplating: i've never thought of myself as a career woman. and i know that with that phrase comes all these connotations like business suit and new york and tall buildings and shrewdness. but i'm not that type of career woman. i'm the type that has a vision and i don't want to settle for anything less, but to see that vision fulfilled. i feel like if i were to settle, half of me would pass away. i want to see people in the film industry know that they're loved and cherished.
christa, i'm so excited about your life. go for it. hopefully i'll get to meet you sometime hermana.
evan, miss you love you carrying you in my heart
heidi, um, let's see, okay, i found it. your name is actually a derivitive of the name hilda and the origin of that name is Teutonic and the meaning of that is "battle maiden" i will carry on about this in my response to you via myspace.
evan, have you learned anything about linux?
love to you all.
colleen
ps i would really like to enter a poetry slam sometime. heidi, i think you would be so good at that.