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hey ho mofolians
drunken update
well here goes....good for nothin piece of shite n treats guys like shite should be treatin guys a little bit better!!that is wat i amm....i dont think he realises just wat the fuk he does to me wen he hugs e am alive n wen he kisses me am not so alone nemore he makes ma life complete an although the things we say cos fights they have to be said!it hurts more than anything to say the thingfs i do but if i dont say them ill bottl them up n then ill explode!he reqlly doesnt realise just how fukin much i have fallen for him !so...i feel shite mibi cos that is wat i am reduced to...oh my gsawd i really dont no wat to do i have fukin tears falling down ma cheecks i really want him here just even for the smallest hug or kiss in the world it would make me so fukin happy !
so what th fuk now do we go on pretendin we r fyn wen we actually are not? or do we call it quits an move on ?the choice is up to !!you tell me youve never felt this way n that you love me two things in which i doubt so fukin much cos if you had never felt this way you wouldnt let me go n if you loved me you woulfd treat me as if yu did but u dont instead you make me feel small an unloved takin her side over mine makin me feel as if im not good enough for your approval!well...if you dnt want me say so...dont string someone along it only makes them feel so unloved that they dont no if they have doen summink wrong!i really dont think u have understoofd just the effect you have taken on me !!!you have become a part o ma life an have gave me an amazi ntym but u have also made me feel really shite an unwanted....
the worst thing is you make me feel liek its actuaaly my fault tht ur treatin me like this....i know im not amazin n im not thee best girlfriend in thee hole world but i have tried n trie dto be wat u want but i guess i wont ever be wat u want ...oh gawd this hurts soo fukin much sayin all thesee things on fukin lj!but oh well i guess they have to be said n i guess this is as godd a place to say it!you not talkin to me ryt now which sux more than u no !especially at a tym in which i need you moe than i ever have u are probvably one o the most important things in ma life ryt now an i no i dont rank so highly on yours!but uck...i dont care !this hurts so fukin much im sittin here cryin !i dont even think your sittin there carin !am so worried your gonna pull someone else!n dont say you wont cos you will!oh gawd this hurts!i have poured ma heart out to u still u treat me like actual shite thsi hurts¬gawdf i dont know wat to do...if i end it mibi ill save maself from further attachment or keep goin n risk loosin everythin(self cinfidance, love, ability to cope without you etc) uck...i dont know i actually am in love n u obv aint this sux so much n i cant eve talk to ma best pals about it cp sthey all love you!!omg i really should curl up n die like you would even care¬
oh man a actually love CRAIG SIMPSON he rawks n while i am sittin here feelin shite he is sittin tryin to make me feel better he rawks i really neediain n ally too!but their not on line n it sux!oh well hopefully if they donyt see me theyll eworry n try to see me n a want monicar, n zoe n toni but i want never gets i spose oh gawd
im soo sorry for borin u all with ma ghey life i hope you all will forgive me its just i need to get this all off ma chest i FEEL SHITE i actually think i may love this perwon but they use the word too easily n take certain ppls side pver mine wen the person is an actual cunt to m n makes me feel like shit ebut uck....ta to them gawd i hate this alll...i think i may stay away fom everything for a while¬
aorry for makin u all listen to this shite i love you all!
drunken update
well here goes....good for nothin piece of shite n treats guys like shite should be treatin guys a little bit better!!that is wat i amm....i dont think he realises just wat the fuk he does to me wen he hugs e am alive n wen he kisses me am not so alone nemore he makes ma life complete an although the things we say cos fights they have to be said!it hurts more than anything to say the thingfs i do but if i dont say them ill bottl them up n then ill explode!he reqlly doesnt realise just how fukin much i have fallen for him !so...i feel shite mibi cos that is wat i am reduced to...oh my gsawd i really dont no wat to do i have fukin tears falling down ma cheecks i really want him here just even for the smallest hug or kiss in the world it would make me so fukin happy !
so what th fuk now do we go on pretendin we r fyn wen we actually are not? or do we call it quits an move on ?the choice is up to !!you tell me youve never felt this way n that you love me two things in which i doubt so fukin much cos if you had never felt this way you wouldnt let me go n if you loved me you woulfd treat me as if yu did but u dont instead you make me feel small an unloved takin her side over mine makin me feel as if im not good enough for your approval!well...if you dnt want me say so...dont string someone along it only makes them feel so unloved that they dont no if they have doen summink wrong!i really dont think u have understoofd just the effect you have taken on me !!!you have become a part o ma life an have gave me an amazi ntym but u have also made me feel really shite an unwanted....
the worst thing is you make me feel liek its actuaaly my fault tht ur treatin me like this....i know im not amazin n im not thee best girlfriend in thee hole world but i have tried n trie dto be wat u want but i guess i wont ever be wat u want ...oh gawd this hurts soo fukin much sayin all thesee things on fukin lj!but oh well i guess they have to be said n i guess this is as godd a place to say it!you not talkin to me ryt now which sux more than u no !especially at a tym in which i need you moe than i ever have u are probvably one o the most important things in ma life ryt now an i no i dont rank so highly on yours!but uck...i dont care !this hurts so fukin much im sittin here cryin !i dont even think your sittin there carin !am so worried your gonna pull someone else!n dont say you wont cos you will!oh gawd this hurts!i have poured ma heart out to u still u treat me like actual shite thsi hurts¬gawdf i dont know wat to do...if i end it mibi ill save maself from further attachment or keep goin n risk loosin everythin(self cinfidance, love, ability to cope without you etc) uck...i dont know i actually am in love n u obv aint this sux so much n i cant eve talk to ma best pals about it cp sthey all love you!!omg i really should curl up n die like you would even care¬
oh man a actually love CRAIG SIMPSON he rawks n while i am sittin here feelin shite he is sittin tryin to make me feel better he rawks i really neediain n ally too!but their not on line n it sux!oh well hopefully if they donyt see me theyll eworry n try to see me n a want monicar, n zoe n toni but i want never gets i spose oh gawd
im soo sorry for borin u all with ma ghey life i hope you all will forgive me its just i need to get this all off ma chest i FEEL SHITE i actually think i may love this perwon but they use the word too easily n take certain ppls side pver mine wen the person is an actual cunt to m n makes me feel like shit ebut uck....ta to them gawd i hate this alll...i think i may stay away fom everything for a while¬
aorry for makin u all listen to this shite i love you all!