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so....this is like the worst night ever !!!
yesterday wound me up alot!!!got told something which is ghey n not true n although it was just somthin stupid made me fell really hurt n stuff!felt like shite soo aye even the smllest o things can hurt btw !!!so some ppl should think before they say !!t hurts wen u hurts someone believe me !!!
Anyway today in town was ghey ...town is realy startin to get to me it makes me miss jazza more n more!! Plu sthe fact that the ppl u once talked to now slag you n dont like you co sthey are "better "than you!!were all equal noone is bettr thna the other!!!
So...ma mum is really unwell gain....the stem in her heart isn;t workin n the doctors are debatin wat they should do next !!!so tht is really shite n has hurt quite alot...really worried bout n for her !!she really is a great person man !!i think its only now that im startin to realise who is truly there dfor me ! like the only person that has foned me n made sue am alryt this whole week was jazza n louise!!so thank you to those two ppl!!<3louise n <3jazza!
so that put quite alot in order for me !hurt quite alot to realise that friendships tht u thought were the most strong brake so feckin easily !!there i slike two of all my mates taht i really did think were there for me until this week!!this is one o those discoveries that hit you like a ton o bricks in the face to find out that the frienship/bond u had wth them is nowhere near as strong as you once thought it was...it hurts you alot to find this out but it also helps you to try n gain other things an make life that little bit bettr for yourself .....it does help alot an although it myt hurt likehell to tell a few home truths not only to yourslef but to those that are recievin your information everything you do if fpr not only the best for them but for yourself!!!and even if they resent you ryt now there is always that glimmer o hope they will respect wat you have done in the future!today i saw one o wat i thought of was ma best o mates an i felt uncomfortable which was so fukin horribl he s ma best mate n he must no he is but now i just feel i cant talk to him n confind in him its horribl cos i would like to be able to cos he is like the best person in the world n although ryt now he prolly finks i hate his gutts or summit along tht line or tht im drunk i m not n i dont it is just i dont no i feel different around you n tht is horribl ....You do n always will meen alot to me wont see you hurt ...but i cant get hurt nemore am sorry n u have hurt me !!!not through meenin it but thru fault sorry its true thought!it ws weird cos u were the one true friend i actually had left or so i felt but uck....i dont kno wguess were bettr of fnow eh?!?........i do love u boy more thna u will EVEr no but i cant put up with this!!!
n then the ppl i usexd to no who are so cool i fell so uncomfy round u guys u make me feel like am below u i dont like feelin that way were all the same or so i thought we were!u used to be ma mates ...
o well
sorry to a certain boi
yesterday wound me up alot!!!got told something which is ghey n not true n although it was just somthin stupid made me fell really hurt n stuff!felt like shite soo aye even the smllest o things can hurt btw !!!so some ppl should think before they say !!t hurts wen u hurts someone believe me !!!
Anyway today in town was ghey ...town is realy startin to get to me it makes me miss jazza more n more!! Plu sthe fact that the ppl u once talked to now slag you n dont like you co sthey are "better "than you!!were all equal noone is bettr thna the other!!!
So...ma mum is really unwell gain....the stem in her heart isn;t workin n the doctors are debatin wat they should do next !!!so tht is really shite n has hurt quite alot...really worried bout n for her !!she really is a great person man !!i think its only now that im startin to realise who is truly there dfor me ! like the only person that has foned me n made sue am alryt this whole week was jazza n louise!!so thank you to those two ppl!!<3louise n <3jazza!
so that put quite alot in order for me !hurt quite alot to realise that friendships tht u thought were the most strong brake so feckin easily !!there i slike two of all my mates taht i really did think were there for me until this week!!this is one o those discoveries that hit you like a ton o bricks in the face to find out that the frienship/bond u had wth them is nowhere near as strong as you once thought it was...it hurts you alot to find this out but it also helps you to try n gain other things an make life that little bit bettr for yourself .....it does help alot an although it myt hurt likehell to tell a few home truths not only to yourslef but to those that are recievin your information everything you do if fpr not only the best for them but for yourself!!!and even if they resent you ryt now there is always that glimmer o hope they will respect wat you have done in the future!today i saw one o wat i thought of was ma best o mates an i felt uncomfortable which was so fukin horribl he s ma best mate n he must no he is but now i just feel i cant talk to him n confind in him its horribl cos i would like to be able to cos he is like the best person in the world n although ryt now he prolly finks i hate his gutts or summit along tht line or tht im drunk i m not n i dont it is just i dont no i feel different around you n tht is horribl ....You do n always will meen alot to me wont see you hurt ...but i cant get hurt nemore am sorry n u have hurt me !!!not through meenin it but thru fault sorry its true thought!it ws weird cos u were the one true friend i actually had left or so i felt but uck....i dont kno wguess were bettr of fnow eh?!?........i do love u boy more thna u will EVEr no but i cant put up with this!!!
n then the ppl i usexd to no who are so cool i fell so uncomfy round u guys u make me feel like am below u i dont like feelin that way were all the same or so i thought we were!u used to be ma mates ...
o well
sorry to a certain boi