Take these broken wings and learn to fly
Wow 23 days left, so intimidating.
Anyways,
Graduation day was awesome and just so much fun :') I didn't think I'd feel upset at all because before thursday came I was like "I can't wait to get out of this hell hole, I want to start everything afresh." True enough, this year was a whole lot of unhappiness and complications. So much that I wish could be erased from my memory. Yet during the farewell assembly when I was reminded of the orientation days and the simplicity of friendships then, I knew instantaneously that I've accumulated a sense of attachment towards this school and some of the people I've gotten to know.
Almost everyone turned up for the class gathering - steamboat at jiaxing's place ^^ It couldn't be more enjoyable. Great food, chains of laughter, entertainment from a cute little bossy girl, plenty of polaroids taken and sharing of the good, even bad, old times. It's kinda bizarre, how we can bring up unhappy things of the past, like how bob made me cry - something that totally seems so trivial and silly now - and find them so amusing. I guess sometimes good memories do include the bad ones too, ironically.
I will certainly miss this whole bunch of people.
Especially the xbls, my pw groupmates and the 'plan b' gang heh :)
On the way home I was talking to huiping about some stuff. Sad stuff, regrets. Well in particular one, that we both share the same feelings towards. I feel that at the end of the day, people, regardless of the grudges they held on to or the reluctance to shoulder the blame, ask themselves, "Did I really try hard enough? What if I did something more, could it have made a difference?" I've been thinking a lot about this lost friendship and how little time there is left for any change to happen.
Even though we don't talk to each other much now, you're definitely one of the few who has made my jc life worthwhile. You deserve so much happiness.
"It's like picking up an unfamiliar piece of sheer music
and starting to stumble through it,
only to realize it is a melody you'd once learned by heart,
one you can play without even trying."