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i was reading my old journal entries where everyday i would update talking about what i did that day, who i was with, what song i was listening to, how i was feeling...and i absolutely never do that anymore.
part of me really misses that, and misses that for some reason people used to care about that shit and comment to me.
but most of me is just embarrassed, and i guess everyone is embarrassed about themselves when they are younger and if you have a journal (internet or regular) and can go back and see exactly what you are like.
i just feel fucking downtrodden, i think is the word. it makes me think of being pushed down and horses running over you and nobody notices.
anyway.
i am off this week because it is winter break.
i have seen some people. i have watched some tv. i have read at least 5 books.
these things happen anyway but this time i don't have to work nine hours a day first.
however, this picture happened, which was unusual, and i got to see samara and matt and melissa as well as my old housemates.
thank you and goodnight.
part of me really misses that, and misses that for some reason people used to care about that shit and comment to me.
but most of me is just embarrassed, and i guess everyone is embarrassed about themselves when they are younger and if you have a journal (internet or regular) and can go back and see exactly what you are like.
i just feel fucking downtrodden, i think is the word. it makes me think of being pushed down and horses running over you and nobody notices.
anyway.
i am off this week because it is winter break.
i have seen some people. i have watched some tv. i have read at least 5 books.
these things happen anyway but this time i don't have to work nine hours a day first.
however, this picture happened, which was unusual, and i got to see samara and matt and melissa as well as my old housemates.
thank you and goodnight.