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bleh...today i kicked kaylas butt in tennis...that made me smile...but i got to see my step sister Rachelle she lives in chico...shes the coolest, we talked for hella long about basically everything i put in the last post...she understands alot of crap thats been going on. but i still cant help but feeling like crap lately...i dont understand it. i feel really really pissed of for some reason...just i feel so betrayed but then again i feel like the betrayer...not like you guys really wanna hear about this but oh well im posting anyways....but like i feel like everything jeremy and don-e and my sister and my brothers and my dad and johnny did to me are just like un forgivable...(long stories...if you wanna know...just ask! heh but you dont wanna know)...but then again just the thought of loosing sami....i just cant help but feel like her death was my fault. i feel there were some things i should have said and done before i lost her that i just didnt take the time to say and do...and i feel so awful knowing those words will remain unsaid because of my wrong doing. and i feel a lack of companionship in my life...wait...those were bad words to use...iiii uhhhh i dont know how to explain it without feeling like a complete idiot. grr i feel like an idiot alot latley...
**LINDSAY**
i cannot believe you broke off our date on friday!!! hehe kidding...but we need to make up for that!! LOVE YOU!!!
**BRENDON**
we have to begin planning our party soon...and im going to buy you a stuffed animal monkey and i will give it a name tag that says 'faggot' although it wont be as good as a real monkey...its better then a lemonade bottle in the face eh??
**ISSY**
i love you darling and i didnt mean to make you feel bad for anything its just that i have been feeling like friggin nothing latley if you have any idea of what that means..i love you soo much and im sorry if you feel like you have done anything wrong because you havent....its not like its your fault we are so far apart...love you *hugs and wet sloppy smooches*
**DAMION**
thank you for the offer but i will pass....i love you......*cough* pervert *cough* *KISS KISS HUG HUG*
**ANNMARIE**
your so cool!!! when your not grounded we need to hang out more because...im just overwhelmed with your extremely cool coolnessess!!! much love new friend!!!
**LINDSAY**
i cannot believe you broke off our date on friday!!! hehe kidding...but we need to make up for that!! LOVE YOU!!!
**BRENDON**
we have to begin planning our party soon...and im going to buy you a stuffed animal monkey and i will give it a name tag that says 'faggot' although it wont be as good as a real monkey...its better then a lemonade bottle in the face eh??
**ISSY**
i love you darling and i didnt mean to make you feel bad for anything its just that i have been feeling like friggin nothing latley if you have any idea of what that means..i love you soo much and im sorry if you feel like you have done anything wrong because you havent....its not like its your fault we are so far apart...love you *hugs and wet sloppy smooches*
**DAMION**
thank you for the offer but i will pass....i love you......*cough* pervert *cough* *KISS KISS HUG HUG*
**ANNMARIE**
your so cool!!! when your not grounded we need to hang out more because...im just overwhelmed with your extremely cool coolnessess!!! much love new friend!!!