May 10, 2005 10:11
--tonight after i go driving with my instructor and adam...6-10... ill have my permit!!!!!!!!!!! i can't wait!
-- man, i am sooooooooo behind in school. everyone that knows me is madd shooked. it seems like i just can't keep up and get caught up. i know that i am finally getting caught up in french and history. I need to try and get my make-up done for english and i have none for science and keyboarding thank god. But math... math..that i doubt i will make up. i have too many zeros and i have way too much work to do on top of everything else i have to do. i am thinking about just taking one day out of this week, shutting off my cell, having my mom tell anyone who calls that im out, and not hang out with any friends and stay off the computer to get all my make-up done. because i NEED to get caught up again!!!!
-- im going to spend the weekened at nicole's for her b-day and i can't wait because i get to meet her friends from Orno and i get to meet her ex bf who she has feelings still for.. and i can't wait to meet them all. then.. im going to P.A. with her in like a week or two for the weekened and i can't wait for that since that will be my first time camping camping and ill be away from here and i away from my life for a weekened which will help me thank god! i can't friggin wait! i LOVE NICOLE SOO MUCH! <3333333333
-- im scared to move on...i am petrified. how do i do it all again??????? i am getting closer to letting the past go and i feel it slipping and im actually afraid! i just dont want to be hurt again.. *sighs* i dont want to deal with bullshit no more. i want the real thing.......idk no more. w/e i am just really scared to do anything that is new with a guy. *bites finger nails*
-valari