omfg!
--i am soo fucking aggrevated today! jesus fucking ah!!!!!!
--i want to fucking scream and pull someone to the fucking ground and just hit the shit out of them!!!!!! god...everyone seems to be on my ass today...i got so mad at my dad like usual that i had to leave cuz i could feel me about to rage out on him right there. instead i just slapped my hands screamed and went for a damn walk. idk what the fuck my problem is but i know it is because the confusion building in my head. I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK I WANT RIGHT NOW!!..
. ---i dont get it, what do i want???????? what? do i move forward, stay stuck, or move back and start again? idk.. but tianna was being the sweet good friend she is and gave me advice which helped me clear it up some. she showed me what i needed to say to certain people and how i need to do upon my situation. i love here soo fucking much. she is like my angel. thank you babe!
--today i was suppose to hang out with adam.. well it made me feel like he blew me off.. because he went and hung out with eric and to do shit to their camp site.. it wasn't the fact that he had to do shit to the tent, but the fact that he makes me think we are going to hang out then tells me on the phone the next day that o i need to get going down to eric's and...w/e...it just irritated the shit out of me. i mean if you tell me and ask if we are going to hang the next day..dont fucking ask and makes plans unless you know shit aint going to come up jesus. it gets your hopes up..then gets shot down after i told my other friends that invited me places that i couldn't but then i find out i could've gone with them instead of being stuck here being aggrevated!
--i know what i need to do i think..in the next couple of days i am going to do some madd shit that is going to be extremely hard for me to do..it is going to hurt me and kill me inside...but i will be ok. i am strong enough. a part of me dont want to do what i am pplanning on doing.. but if i dont then i am only hurting myself...like always and i am not willing to do so, not again.
--tonight in about less than an hour my family (memere, pepere, mandy, bobby, bonnie, mom, dad, and me) are going to have a goodbye dinner for bobby and bonnie since that dinner i wrote about was cancelled since the drama that went on. well now we are going out to eat at village inn..i can't stand the place..but o well.. then after that i am suppose to go to adam's family thingy he is having. but that is it for about now..
oo and im trying to learn how to put pictures on here..can someone please let me know how to!!!!!
-valari
--i want to fucking scream and pull someone to the fucking ground and just hit the shit out of them!!!!!! god...everyone seems to be on my ass today...i got so mad at my dad like usual that i had to leave cuz i could feel me about to rage out on him right there. instead i just slapped my hands screamed and went for a damn walk. idk what the fuck my problem is but i know it is because the confusion building in my head. I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK I WANT RIGHT NOW!!..
. ---i dont get it, what do i want???????? what? do i move forward, stay stuck, or move back and start again? idk.. but tianna was being the sweet good friend she is and gave me advice which helped me clear it up some. she showed me what i needed to say to certain people and how i need to do upon my situation. i love here soo fucking much. she is like my angel. thank you babe!
--today i was suppose to hang out with adam.. well it made me feel like he blew me off.. because he went and hung out with eric and to do shit to their camp site.. it wasn't the fact that he had to do shit to the tent, but the fact that he makes me think we are going to hang out then tells me on the phone the next day that o i need to get going down to eric's and...w/e...it just irritated the shit out of me. i mean if you tell me and ask if we are going to hang the next day..dont fucking ask and makes plans unless you know shit aint going to come up jesus. it gets your hopes up..then gets shot down after i told my other friends that invited me places that i couldn't but then i find out i could've gone with them instead of being stuck here being aggrevated!
--i know what i need to do i think..in the next couple of days i am going to do some madd shit that is going to be extremely hard for me to do..it is going to hurt me and kill me inside...but i will be ok. i am strong enough. a part of me dont want to do what i am pplanning on doing.. but if i dont then i am only hurting myself...like always and i am not willing to do so, not again.
--tonight in about less than an hour my family (memere, pepere, mandy, bobby, bonnie, mom, dad, and me) are going to have a goodbye dinner for bobby and bonnie since that dinner i wrote about was cancelled since the drama that went on. well now we are going out to eat at village inn..i can't stand the place..but o well.. then after that i am suppose to go to adam's family thingy he is having. but that is it for about now..
oo and im trying to learn how to put pictures on here..can someone please let me know how to!!!!!
-valari