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so I thought I only still had this thing for a stupid reason so I deleted it....but then I kept wanting to write in it and not for the stupid reason ...so it was deleted for pretty much less than a week ...
anyway today I watched a really cute new show (that pushing daisys one ) ...where this guy brings back the girl who was his first kiss from the dead ...cause hes got magical dead bringing back powers like that ..and then I was thinking about my first kiss and how it was all sweet at the time but then the guy was a jerk later so that kind of wrecks the memory...but then I remembered that when I was five I kissed the ring bearer at my uncles wedding when I was the flower girl ....right after I sang the I love you you love me song from barney over the microphone and just before I threw up all over my new aunts wedding shoes.... anyways theres a picture of me kissing this other random five year old somewhere around ...but I can't remember if I'm kissing his cheek or his lips ...I'm fairly sure its the lips and if it is that would be great because then my first kiss was when I was five and I could at least have this one first that wasnt with a complete asshole ...so I've spent the whole night ripping the house apart looking for this stupid picture that I can;t find ...and now I'm obsessed cause what kind of person doesn;t know if their first kiss was when they were 5 or not ? I cant ask my uncle for the picture cause even if he hasn't burned every single picture from that day, he defionatly won't want to drag out a photo album looking for it...and if I explain the whole first kiss thing he is just going to make fun of me forever about it ...so if I can't find my copy of the picture i'm sort of screwed ...stupid picture....ah I'm going to write about something else ....
I'm sick of explaining why I am trying to be a vegan to people ...it always turns into this big defensive thing where everyones yelling about how animals don't have minds/ feelings/ personalitys and how it isnt cruel to milk a cow ...and everyones attacking me even tho all I said was "I can;t eat that it has milk" and never judged anyone else for eating meat dairy or eggs ...people can eat whatever they want ...I don't start yelling at anyone about animal cruelty when they order KFC so how come I get yelled at for eating a veggie burger ....jeez....ona sidenote I completly miss cheese....
I want the whole moving in with alexis, meghan , justin and jenni ...well technically just jenni with the other three as the upstairs ..thing to work out ...but I also don't want to leave my dog here and I don't want to be completly out of money...I made a budget where I would be broke in 4 months ...but I didn't budget in my tip money and I made everything 100 dollars more expensive than it really would be ...I don't know why...probably to be realistic ...even tho that could be looked at as unrealistic ...the whole thing could be looked at as unrealistic but I want it to happen...I wish I could bring freckles I'd completly miss him...plus I'm sure if I left he wouldn't understand and would hate me forever ...my dog can't hate me ...
I need a new love interest ..I've had the same dramatic thing going for too long and its too complicated ...if my life were a soap opera I'd have a new boy every week...I don't really want a new boy every week ...I'm not the new boy every week type....thats actually my problem...I actually want the same boy for awhile just not this same boy...my music taste is so weird lately but theres a song that totally fits the whole situation in my head anyways ...so naturally I've listioned to it too much.
if I find that picture and I'm kissing that other five year old on the cheek instead of the lips I'll be upset ....thats pretty pathetic but oh well ...maybe its better that I don't find the picture...I'm pretty sure it was the lips anyways....
anyway today I watched a really cute new show (that pushing daisys one ) ...where this guy brings back the girl who was his first kiss from the dead ...cause hes got magical dead bringing back powers like that ..and then I was thinking about my first kiss and how it was all sweet at the time but then the guy was a jerk later so that kind of wrecks the memory...but then I remembered that when I was five I kissed the ring bearer at my uncles wedding when I was the flower girl ....right after I sang the I love you you love me song from barney over the microphone and just before I threw up all over my new aunts wedding shoes.... anyways theres a picture of me kissing this other random five year old somewhere around ...but I can't remember if I'm kissing his cheek or his lips ...I'm fairly sure its the lips and if it is that would be great because then my first kiss was when I was five and I could at least have this one first that wasnt with a complete asshole ...so I've spent the whole night ripping the house apart looking for this stupid picture that I can;t find ...and now I'm obsessed cause what kind of person doesn;t know if their first kiss was when they were 5 or not ? I cant ask my uncle for the picture cause even if he hasn't burned every single picture from that day, he defionatly won't want to drag out a photo album looking for it...and if I explain the whole first kiss thing he is just going to make fun of me forever about it ...so if I can't find my copy of the picture i'm sort of screwed ...stupid picture....ah I'm going to write about something else ....
I'm sick of explaining why I am trying to be a vegan to people ...it always turns into this big defensive thing where everyones yelling about how animals don't have minds/ feelings/ personalitys and how it isnt cruel to milk a cow ...and everyones attacking me even tho all I said was "I can;t eat that it has milk" and never judged anyone else for eating meat dairy or eggs ...people can eat whatever they want ...I don't start yelling at anyone about animal cruelty when they order KFC so how come I get yelled at for eating a veggie burger ....jeez....ona sidenote I completly miss cheese....
I want the whole moving in with alexis, meghan , justin and jenni ...well technically just jenni with the other three as the upstairs ..thing to work out ...but I also don't want to leave my dog here and I don't want to be completly out of money...I made a budget where I would be broke in 4 months ...but I didn't budget in my tip money and I made everything 100 dollars more expensive than it really would be ...I don't know why...probably to be realistic ...even tho that could be looked at as unrealistic ...the whole thing could be looked at as unrealistic but I want it to happen...I wish I could bring freckles I'd completly miss him...plus I'm sure if I left he wouldn't understand and would hate me forever ...my dog can't hate me ...
I need a new love interest ..I've had the same dramatic thing going for too long and its too complicated ...if my life were a soap opera I'd have a new boy every week...I don't really want a new boy every week ...I'm not the new boy every week type....thats actually my problem...I actually want the same boy for awhile just not this same boy...my music taste is so weird lately but theres a song that totally fits the whole situation in my head anyways ...so naturally I've listioned to it too much.
if I find that picture and I'm kissing that other five year old on the cheek instead of the lips I'll be upset ....thats pretty pathetic but oh well ...maybe its better that I don't find the picture...I'm pretty sure it was the lips anyways....