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I have a rat ...I can't do rats I can't do rats I can't and I'm tired but theres a rat and its moving alot around but i can't see where it is....and then sometimes I catch a glimpse ...but I want to sleeeep but theres a stupid fucking rat IN my basement ...and I'm crying ...I cry over the stupidest things but I really can't do rats ...i can feel the rat on me and snakes now too because with the rats come the snakes and holy shit i'm fucking afraid of rats and i can feel it on my skin crawling all over me lots of rats but i know that there is actually only one rat and that its not near me...well it probably is ...and i can't get under the covers because in my head i see all these rats hiding there and now i'm actually seeing rats that arn't there ...rat rat rat rat rat...i fucking can't do this ...stupid rat ...every time i start to calm down i see the rat or imagine seeing the rat or imagine all kinds of rats crawling all over me and in my mouth and tangling in my hair choking and being eaten alive by rats and snakes falling from the ceiling onto me and the rats and stinging me so that i can't move against the rats and my skin hurts now from all the imaginary rats ...i'm going to throw up and then my puke will attract the rat and its rat friends.fuck rats.fuck. I can't stop picturing my face being torn apart by rats.