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Sorry it's been so long since I bothered to update, Livejournal. I'm doing so because I have bad news, I heard back University of California Santa Cruz, and I don't meet the admissions criteria at this time for a Junior Transfer, or some politely worded shit like that. All I can say is, fuck. I have a 3.6 GPA, I thought that was really good, but I guess not? Well, I had tried to take the attitude that I didn't know what would happen, every other time I've gotten over optimistic about a college admissions decision, that is the first time I applied to college, and the last time I attempted a transfer to Eugene Lang, I've had my hopes crushed. But I really thought this would be different, I thought I had a really strong transcript, but then again...
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Thank you for your interest in attending UC Santa Cruz. Your application for admission for the fall quarter 2009 has been reviewed, and unfortunately, you do not currently meet our campus selection criteria as a junior transfer. We received over 5,600 transfer applications for a projected enrollment of 950 students, and there are many fine students whom we were unable to accommodate."
Well, 5600, compared to the previous statistics I'd seen, which said something more like 4000 transfer applicants, that's a much slimmer margin. I guess it makes sense for people to be trying to transfer to public universities right now, what with the economy and the sheer impossibility of even getting, much less paying back, student loans. This is really a bummer though. Yes, I still have NYU to apply to, and I hear back about that in May, but this really doesn't instill me with any confidence that I'll like, ever be accepted by a traditional four year university, and talk about selective universities...
I do have a plan B this time, in Harvard Extension. I also should be hearing back this week if I was accepted into the degree program, and if I wasn't, that would be simply ludicrous, I mean really, all things considered. I really hadn't thought too hard that I would still be here come next year, but it's looking more and more possible. And I mean, that wouldn't be the end of the world, I've done very well at Harvard Extension, I'm carving out a place in the theater community, and as comfortable as I am in Allston and Cambridge, I've also wanted... something other than home. Somewhere that I can really belong, and as an Extension student, I really don't "belong" at Harvard, I exist on the fringes of it. And I know people here who do likewise, and they enjoy it. But I've spent my life up till now in this fringe existence, and I don't know if its misbegotten and youthful angst rearing it's ugly head once again, but I wonder if it's possible for me to ever feel like I belong somewhere. Part of the experience of the young intellectual is a sort of feeling of distance from the world, of feeling different from everyone else. And I'm yet to grow out of that stage. I'd always thought in high school, that when I got to college it would be possible, but maybe not.
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Thank you for your interest in attending UC Santa Cruz. Your application for admission for the fall quarter 2009 has been reviewed, and unfortunately, you do not currently meet our campus selection criteria as a junior transfer. We received over 5,600 transfer applications for a projected enrollment of 950 students, and there are many fine students whom we were unable to accommodate."
Well, 5600, compared to the previous statistics I'd seen, which said something more like 4000 transfer applicants, that's a much slimmer margin. I guess it makes sense for people to be trying to transfer to public universities right now, what with the economy and the sheer impossibility of even getting, much less paying back, student loans. This is really a bummer though. Yes, I still have NYU to apply to, and I hear back about that in May, but this really doesn't instill me with any confidence that I'll like, ever be accepted by a traditional four year university, and talk about selective universities...
I do have a plan B this time, in Harvard Extension. I also should be hearing back this week if I was accepted into the degree program, and if I wasn't, that would be simply ludicrous, I mean really, all things considered. I really hadn't thought too hard that I would still be here come next year, but it's looking more and more possible. And I mean, that wouldn't be the end of the world, I've done very well at Harvard Extension, I'm carving out a place in the theater community, and as comfortable as I am in Allston and Cambridge, I've also wanted... something other than home. Somewhere that I can really belong, and as an Extension student, I really don't "belong" at Harvard, I exist on the fringes of it. And I know people here who do likewise, and they enjoy it. But I've spent my life up till now in this fringe existence, and I don't know if its misbegotten and youthful angst rearing it's ugly head once again, but I wonder if it's possible for me to ever feel like I belong somewhere. Part of the experience of the young intellectual is a sort of feeling of distance from the world, of feeling different from everyone else. And I'm yet to grow out of that stage. I'd always thought in high school, that when I got to college it would be possible, but maybe not.