sometimes...
there are alot of things on my mind. The main one that I can't seem to fall asleep. THis is ridiculous. I love what I do...I am drilling tomorrow. I love my job, I can't get enough of the Coast Guard. I feel like somebody when I do it. It de,ands respect and the uniform is the symbol. Maybe I am really just obsessed.
I got a new uniform though. One that is from A gas station/convenience store. It's enjoyable. But I notice the difference between having a job I LOVE! and a job I work at.
On top of that though things are awesome with H. Iam head over heels in love with this girl. Everytime I think of her I get happy. But I am afraid my old self my reappear. The one that starts doubting things. I hate it. I get afraid that she'll get bored with me or something along those lines. It's the one that can get jealous or act irrationally. I don't think I should ignore it but deal with it as it comes. It's taht little insecure high school kid. You know the one that takes things personnal and wants to run away.
Maybe that is why I love the Coast Guard soooo much it gives me a lot of confidence. I am real when I am there. I can act like one.
Owell...I don't necessarily feel like I need pity...but still it is frustrating!!!!
P and S got married 3 weeks ago. I like them together. ALthough P is acting a little bit odd. We'll manage. I want to help them and stuff.
We are playing Dungeons and dragons now. ALong with my girl...it's soooo cool. I don't care what anyone says! It is so much fun. I am the dungeon master. So I run the entire scenario.
I think though this weekend away from H is good. A bit of time apart never really hurt any one. ALthough she actually didn't want me to go. It's nice to hear that, especially that I feel the same way. I don't want to leave her, I want her to be my side everyday.
There was a moment when I said something to her about the way she was acting. I hate doing that. I don't like being critical about people. I might have had a point, but changing people isn't what I should attempt! But the best part was taht she reacted really nicely to it and said she would work on it.
Oyeah the Orange Order had a meeting. It was so much fun we sang a song and marched with an orange flag around the pool! Then we watched a movie on the battle of the boyne. Very enjoyable and my dad met H's grandparents. THat is one step forward.
Next week I am working everyday for 6 days straight. Including last week and the work for the Coast Guard I will be working 11 days straight!!!! Fun...the money is worth.
I am working out too. I feel good and starting to get bigger.
Boatwright called yesterday. She is always bubbly and stuff. She is still with her man. YEah...long live the happy couple...as I said that sarcasticly.
okay I think I am tired.
good night neverland!!!
I got a new uniform though. One that is from A gas station/convenience store. It's enjoyable. But I notice the difference between having a job I LOVE! and a job I work at.
On top of that though things are awesome with H. Iam head over heels in love with this girl. Everytime I think of her I get happy. But I am afraid my old self my reappear. The one that starts doubting things. I hate it. I get afraid that she'll get bored with me or something along those lines. It's the one that can get jealous or act irrationally. I don't think I should ignore it but deal with it as it comes. It's taht little insecure high school kid. You know the one that takes things personnal and wants to run away.
Maybe that is why I love the Coast Guard soooo much it gives me a lot of confidence. I am real when I am there. I can act like one.
Owell...I don't necessarily feel like I need pity...but still it is frustrating!!!!
P and S got married 3 weeks ago. I like them together. ALthough P is acting a little bit odd. We'll manage. I want to help them and stuff.
We are playing Dungeons and dragons now. ALong with my girl...it's soooo cool. I don't care what anyone says! It is so much fun. I am the dungeon master. So I run the entire scenario.
I think though this weekend away from H is good. A bit of time apart never really hurt any one. ALthough she actually didn't want me to go. It's nice to hear that, especially that I feel the same way. I don't want to leave her, I want her to be my side everyday.
There was a moment when I said something to her about the way she was acting. I hate doing that. I don't like being critical about people. I might have had a point, but changing people isn't what I should attempt! But the best part was taht she reacted really nicely to it and said she would work on it.
Oyeah the Orange Order had a meeting. It was so much fun we sang a song and marched with an orange flag around the pool! Then we watched a movie on the battle of the boyne. Very enjoyable and my dad met H's grandparents. THat is one step forward.
Next week I am working everyday for 6 days straight. Including last week and the work for the Coast Guard I will be working 11 days straight!!!! Fun...the money is worth.
I am working out too. I feel good and starting to get bigger.
Boatwright called yesterday. She is always bubbly and stuff. She is still with her man. YEah...long live the happy couple...as I said that sarcasticly.
okay I think I am tired.
good night neverland!!!