coasties and marines...don't read if you like to hear me whine
Just a warning, this is an akward entry and is a bit whiny. So if you like to read it go ahead other wise don't :)
Today is an akward day, I am really prepping for saying good bye to my closest and bestest friend in the entire world. I love this guy more then I could ever put on paper. He is getting married. I know that things will relatively stay the same. But it feels that way. I think it is funny how one of my friends said that in some ways I talk like a jealous girlfriend. But I don't thinjk that is entirely true.
First of I am not a girl but that is besides the point. I think there are some things i am very confused about. Things like why I am not the best man. I am not unhappy about it, R will make a great best man but on the other hand who has spent days and years with P. Next I feel akward about the wedding, I feel like S doesn;t really like me that much or maybe it's P's mom. Maybe R is really a better friend then me. I don't know. I am not justifying my existence, I don't have to explain it to anyone at all. Owell these are questions that will linger in my head for many years probably.
ALso I feel as though P is being pawned of to his wife by P's mother. She doesn't know what to do with him and there fore is sending him away.
Now that R is out of the OCS program does that mean that P will also forget about it?? I will talk to R about that.
Does P just seem completely out of it. Does he even realize what he is getting into...Yeah R(female) explained to me once that the parents are helping with the relationship and they are encouraging it. But honestly...19???? P's wife to be is 19. I don't know.
Lets see what else is there. I think that is almost it...okay that is it.
Now onto other things. I am in love with H, head over heels in love with this girl. She is charming, funny, witty, intelligent and really likes me!!!!. I reel when I think of it. I just want ot make her really happy. I love the way she looks at me, the way she gets kind of shy when I make a compliment, the way she gets all excited when I talk to her. She relaly has stolen my heart.
Okay...mushy stuff over now. Keep reading if you want.
Tomorrow is the big day, P is getting married. I am done at 4 and then...well not sure what I am going to do afterwards.
-j
Today is an akward day, I am really prepping for saying good bye to my closest and bestest friend in the entire world. I love this guy more then I could ever put on paper. He is getting married. I know that things will relatively stay the same. But it feels that way. I think it is funny how one of my friends said that in some ways I talk like a jealous girlfriend. But I don't thinjk that is entirely true.
First of I am not a girl but that is besides the point. I think there are some things i am very confused about. Things like why I am not the best man. I am not unhappy about it, R will make a great best man but on the other hand who has spent days and years with P. Next I feel akward about the wedding, I feel like S doesn;t really like me that much or maybe it's P's mom. Maybe R is really a better friend then me. I don't know. I am not justifying my existence, I don't have to explain it to anyone at all. Owell these are questions that will linger in my head for many years probably.
ALso I feel as though P is being pawned of to his wife by P's mother. She doesn't know what to do with him and there fore is sending him away.
Now that R is out of the OCS program does that mean that P will also forget about it?? I will talk to R about that.
Does P just seem completely out of it. Does he even realize what he is getting into...Yeah R(female) explained to me once that the parents are helping with the relationship and they are encouraging it. But honestly...19???? P's wife to be is 19. I don't know.
Lets see what else is there. I think that is almost it...okay that is it.
Now onto other things. I am in love with H, head over heels in love with this girl. She is charming, funny, witty, intelligent and really likes me!!!!. I reel when I think of it. I just want ot make her really happy. I love the way she looks at me, the way she gets kind of shy when I make a compliment, the way she gets all excited when I talk to her. She relaly has stolen my heart.
Okay...mushy stuff over now. Keep reading if you want.
Tomorrow is the big day, P is getting married. I am done at 4 and then...well not sure what I am going to do afterwards.
-j