Last night...
Ok,last night,I had a "party" for my birthday. It was me,Autum,Amy,Chasidy,and Jenice. This is my entry about last night.
I bet you're all wondering how last night went,hmm? Well,it sucked. For the 5th time,I was pushed aside for Autum. Alright,first it was me,Autum,Amy and Murley on my bed. It was raining outside and my light was off. It was Autum and Amy the whole time. Amy barely fucking touched me. Me and Murley sat on the sidelines and watched. We watched them finger each other. For about 15 fucking minutes. Then Murley had to leave and Jenice and Chasidy showed up. And remember how I had said that Autum and Amy had plans? They didn't do shit. They were all over each other. The whole fucking night. Amy didn't even sleep next to me. I wanted her to so bad,and she didn't fucking do it. So I was on the edge of the bed,Jenice was behind me,then Autum,then Amy up against the wall. I barely had any room (because im a fat bitch and I take up alot of space) so I kept falling off the bed. But Jenice was spooning with me. That was the one good thing about that night. Finally,I got off the bed and went into the bathroom and fucking sobbed for a good ten minutes. Did they notice? No. After I finished crying, I came back into the room and got a pillow and blanket and slept on the floor. But,before that,I was huddled against my dresser,crying my fucking eyes out again,trying to be quiet,and Jenice was looking for me (it was pitch black and we couldn't see anything) and she found me then Amy and Autum came up and they heard me crying and starting hugging me and shit and then AMY FUCKING CUDDLED WITH AUTUM!!! NOT ME! AUTUM! NOT THE ONE WHO WAS CRYING HER FUCKING EYES OUT AND SHAKING,BUT AUTUM!
I mean,don't get me wrong. I'm glad Autum and Amy could spend time outside of school,but not at my expense. I thought it was going to be more about me,you know,since it was for my birthday and all. But no. It was all Autum and Amy. I'm sick of it. Tomorrow,I'm not speaking to either one of them. Fuck them. I'm through with their mind games.Amy says Autum is fragile. Autum isn't fragile. Autum is a manilupative little bitch.So is Amy. I'm just sick and tired of it. Even Amy's boyfriend Murley noticed it. He's so fucking nice. I love him to death. That's my baby. But I'm done ranting about last night. I'm sure I'll come back and edit this post later when I think of something else to write.
I bet you're all wondering how last night went,hmm? Well,it sucked. For the 5th time,I was pushed aside for Autum. Alright,first it was me,Autum,Amy and Murley on my bed. It was raining outside and my light was off. It was Autum and Amy the whole time. Amy barely fucking touched me. Me and Murley sat on the sidelines and watched. We watched them finger each other. For about 15 fucking minutes. Then Murley had to leave and Jenice and Chasidy showed up. And remember how I had said that Autum and Amy had plans? They didn't do shit. They were all over each other. The whole fucking night. Amy didn't even sleep next to me. I wanted her to so bad,and she didn't fucking do it. So I was on the edge of the bed,Jenice was behind me,then Autum,then Amy up against the wall. I barely had any room (because im a fat bitch and I take up alot of space) so I kept falling off the bed. But Jenice was spooning with me. That was the one good thing about that night. Finally,I got off the bed and went into the bathroom and fucking sobbed for a good ten minutes. Did they notice? No. After I finished crying, I came back into the room and got a pillow and blanket and slept on the floor. But,before that,I was huddled against my dresser,crying my fucking eyes out again,trying to be quiet,and Jenice was looking for me (it was pitch black and we couldn't see anything) and she found me then Amy and Autum came up and they heard me crying and starting hugging me and shit and then AMY FUCKING CUDDLED WITH AUTUM!!! NOT ME! AUTUM! NOT THE ONE WHO WAS CRYING HER FUCKING EYES OUT AND SHAKING,BUT AUTUM!
I mean,don't get me wrong. I'm glad Autum and Amy could spend time outside of school,but not at my expense. I thought it was going to be more about me,you know,since it was for my birthday and all. But no. It was all Autum and Amy. I'm sick of it. Tomorrow,I'm not speaking to either one of them. Fuck them. I'm through with their mind games.Amy says Autum is fragile. Autum isn't fragile. Autum is a manilupative little bitch.So is Amy. I'm just sick and tired of it. Even Amy's boyfriend Murley noticed it. He's so fucking nice. I love him to death. That's my baby. But I'm done ranting about last night. I'm sure I'll come back and edit this post later when I think of something else to write.