17.01.2012 ~ Never have a dream so real !!!
Last night, strangely, it was 2am when i turned off the laptop to go to sleep because i wanted to wake up early in the morning, and by early i meant 7.30 or 8 haha, i went to bed and i just could not sleep, insomnia ?! sorry, acquainted but broke up long time ago haha, so it was weird, leave it, i just turned on the light and read the book on college essay. Then i went to sleep at 3am. More strangely, i woke up this morning at 7.30 !!!!! And i had a really really really real dream. Have you ever had a dream that is so real it confuses you sometimes ?? i have, many times, most are about love life.
Once about Tân Khoa, who i liked in 9 grade, he was cool haha. Another about a guy who i cannot name because he is my friend and one of my girls like him, so i cannot risk saying his name here haha. Another one is about a guy i met at a camp for about ... long ago, just kidding, it was the start of this school year, i had a crush on him partly because he was so cool dancing and he was kinda cold and nice at the same time, which is one of the thing i love about guys. Just the thinking of it brings a smile to my face. He dances like a boss, and i used present tense to report this to emphasize that akways dances awesomely haha, yeah i thought he was cold but somehow i was attracted to him, maybe because he was kinda the guys i always fall for, no matter how hard i try, and actually not that much haha, i just cannot stay away. Then when i was hanging with one of my dudes from the school, yeah we were separated so we could make new friends and do some teamwork, my friend played the harmonica, which is huge at our school but not very popular outside in the conventional world, and suddenly he came up sitting with us, and he asked my friend if he could borrow the harmonica. At first, my friend was such an ass, haha, and did not lend him. Then we started talking and he was such a nice guy WITH HUMOR, another thing i love about guys haha, and my friend then lended him the harmonica, and he played it just as well as any guy from our school. I was shocked that there was actually someone knew about and knew how to play it, you know, apart from ones in my schoo. That moment, i just realized i had a crush on him, which is just cute because we are not gonna see each other anymore. Yeah, kinda sad but maybe not entirely, remember in How i met your mother season 1 or 2 i do not remember, Ted hooks up with this girl at the wedding and she does not wanna know anything about him so this will just be a good memmory they will sometimes recall and smile or laugh about it. This kinda feels like it, because everytime i think about that guy, i feel a sudden urge to smile haha. I will never know if he really a nice guy or just a badass who just pretends to be cool to make girls fall for him, woah that is somehow kinda harsh don't you think haha ? I am sure he is not that bad, but who know huh ? Yeah my dream about him was just as sweet as anything i remember about him. In the dream, he somehow goes to my school and attend some kinda conference about study abroad in Japan and strangely again, all my friends do not wanna go so i just go alone haha. Then we meet, and he remembers me. What a nice dream ! We do some jokings and laughing. After that dream, i feel like falling for him all over again without seeing him haha.
Yeah, those dreams made me so confounded i could not stop thinking about them, in which i have really good moments that only happen in movies or things like that. Last night, or should i say, this morning i had one like that. About anh Thành Nhân, who is my crush in 10 grade, or last year, partially haha. Yeah, i fell for his guitar playing to be exact, and his seemingly cool but actually kinda shy side. People only see him playing the guitar or the piano so well and he does not talk much, they, including i in the beginning, just assume that he is cold.
Yet after our school traditional camp, one of the guys from 12 Math class knew about that and set me up the day after the camp. When we were eating lunch, one of his friends was hitting on my girl, Mía, suddenly, actually not really that sudden, just because 2 of our friends mentioned earlier were so shy and had nothing to talk about, they changed the subject to my secret crush on anh TN. Then, the fcking guy who claimed himself to be one of anh TN close friends, asked another guy to get anh TN to the canteen, where we were. Later, anh TN came ahhhhhh !!!! Althouh i was screaming and squealing like a kiddy school girl in the inside, you was able to keep my cool on the outside haha. We talked like normal people, a senior and a freshman, i admit, he was super duper cute. He was kinda shy and also straightforward at the same time. He was confused at first and did not know what to talk about, and i was the talkative girl so i brought up some topics, and before we knew it, all of our friends already left. I thought he was gonna return to his class leaving me there, after all, he was asked to come and talk to me, there was no thing like obligation for him to stay and continue talking to me, but HE STAYED !!! yeah, i said he was straighforward, didn't I ? yeah, he started asking me things and we were like ... um i don't know, SOULMATES haha !! Yeah, we were so absorbed that we did not realize lunch time was over until the class bell rang and my friends passed us to go to the chemistry lab to do some experiments. I then was so shocked and just did not know what to do rather than hurrily say goodbye to him and also sorry for the inconvenience. I did not remember clearly but he said something like, "I stayed becaused i wanted to talk to you more" awwwwwwwwwwww !!! What i did not know at the time is that all of his friends knew about it and started inquiring him once he got back. And in the break time in the afternoon, OMG this is kinda embarrassing to tell, but yeah i will continue. My girls were hanging out at balcony in front of our class, and suddenly the spotted him on the balcony in front of his class, which is 2 floors from mine, staring at them. They called me outside and then suddenly his friends appeared and all of them, including him, started staring at me, i could really feel embarrassed but i just could not turn away, that would be rude. Suddenly, again, they start shouting his name ahhhhh >.< for like 2 or 3 times. Then THEY STARTED SHOUTING MINE !!!! Some others from the other classes heard it and went out, not like the whole school but, enough for the story to ran around the school. But it did not end there. They went inside, we, i and my friends thought it was over, but it was not. They returned and started shouting "I like you" !!! gosh, i was so embarrassed, not like humiliated-embarrassed but more like blushing-embarrassed, i just did not wanna use that word. Then i heard the news that struck me like a lighting, they were called inside for punishment because they "make noise in the break time", which, to my opinion, was not satisfactory at all. What was wrong with shouting AT BREAK TIME ??? but of course i did not have a voice in that issue. Then my friends started teasing me about it. I got so confused i yelled at the senior who set me up in the beginning and he misunderstood me and told anh TN that i did not like him.
I got so frustuated and so scared i did not explain that to him. I was afraid of what he and his friends would think about me: a bitch who plays around with people's feelings. Fortunately, they did not think about me that way. I think anh TN persuade them to believe me. Then of course we could not return back to the beginning, we were back to normal friends. I was lucky he is a nice guy. Yeah, i have to admit i have always had a thing for him. You know, for him to not treat me like a bitch is incredible, even my friends censured me about it, yet he did not say a thing. But i was upset we were not exactly normal friends: we both know we have things to figure out, yet we refuse to do it.
Then he took the entrance test and got into the best university in VN, i must say. He was good at studying to, i love guys who are smarter than me haha, and you cannot blame me. He left high school and we did not meet since except for some of the events at our school, he returned with his friends to attend, you cannot blame them either, my school is awesomeeeeee !!! We met as normal friends and exchanged greetings as acquaintances, except for the fact that one of his friends, who is super handsome and nice and all, he has one blemish, he just love to tease me and anh TN about the thing happened, you know, the break time thing haha. He kept saying he lost some points on our relationship so it has to work out haha, we all know he was just joking, part of me somehow sometimes for some reasons wants him to meant it. That would mean that anh TN still has a thing for me. I know that is low, even for me, and also a horrible thing to ask after all i did to him, for which my friends predicted that he will come back and take revenge on me. Last 2 times i saw him, there were somethings happened. The former one is at out singing contest for Teacher's day. He did not arrived until late, and by the time i saw him, i had to leave as well. I wanted to come up and say hello so bad, but i was alone and he was with his friends and i did not wanted to cause him any inconvenience. So after the ongoing performance ended, i went outside to go home and surprised to find him out there talking with his friends. I mean, they just arrived and just a minute ago, they were in the hall watching the performance tentatively. We said hi then i when down the stairs, after some steps, i found him after me, as surprised as i could get, i asked him " Where are you going ?" he simply answered "I'm going home". See ? the strange thing is he has just arrive yet he wanted to go home. I did not say that he went down stairs just so he could walk with me, but who can blame a teenage girl for overthinking things haha ?
Our latest meeting was our school Spring festival, where classes set up shops to sell things and there will be a concert in the evening. While i was running around selling things, i ran into the nice-handsome-somehow-annoying friend of him, I asked him to buy one, and he just answered matter-of-the-fact-ly "Wait for TN, he will buy all of them for you haha". I just skipped him before my friends could make fun of me in front of him. Then, thanks to my incredible almot unbelievable resistance, we sold them all. And when i was selling fruit at out shop, my friends pulled me out and just almost literally shoved me to anh TN, who seemed surprised at the scene, too, guess anh Hoàng Sơn, the handsome one, had something to do with it. anh Hoàng Sơn said "You wanna sell anything, sell it to him". I was kinda upset to realized that i already sold all of them, all that was left was fruit. as if I was afraid he would run away, i held his hand unintendedly and anh Hoàng Sơn just had things to talk about. He went like "Oooh, holding hands". I did not let go, even now i do not know what made me so bold that moment. And anh TN said fruit was OK so i told my friend to made him 2 helpings haha. Then i realized, all my girls were gone, as usual, when a boy i like is around, they always disappear mysterioslyl, guess i just have to deal with it myself. Then because it was at the end of the selling section, my classmates were hurrily selling all the things with half price and all, they were busy as hell, so we have to wait for some time. Suddenly, one girl from anh TN's friends who are all standing a meter from us, stepped up and 'sorta' clinged onto him and said "it took so long, let's go' and i hurrily said "please wait just a little bit more" and she kept going like "let's go" and to my and also her surprise, anh TN coldly said "Just wait a little bit more, it's ok". I, at that moment, sensed something and immediately let go of his hand and stepped back 1 step. You know what i fear right, she was his girlfriend. Then i gave him the fruit and said thank you and goodbye, we continued with our work. It was kinda sad to type that down. However, i had to go home early so i could not watch anh TN playing guitar in the concert. Then anh Hoàng Sơn asked me through Y! that why i did not stay. Then i just simply asked him about the girl in the evening, he laughed and said "She was my girlfriend". I laughed it away too, but it was still kinda cryptic to me the way she and anh TN behaved. Anyway, I also told anh Hoàng Sơn to stop teasing me for fear that it will annoy anh TN, you know, if he does not like me anymore. Yeah, and anh HS just went like "you made him blushed" at the time, it did not mean much to me because i was super depressed at that time and now, i just read it again, my heart skipped a beat and i could not stop reading it over and over. All because of that dream. You know, i like boys who treats me well, i want warmth and sense of security and also a sense of control over me. I want someone who can, you know, coldly reply to me the way anh TN did to anh HS's girlfriend haha. And in my dream, he really did that, but he was still a nice guy, so in the end, i woke up thinking about him on and on until now. It's like the 2nd dream all over again.
Writing this all down makes me feel like a novelist or at least a fictionist haha. Although these are all real, it's pretty hard to believe huh ? Sometimes, life is like a movie whose ending is unknown.
Once about Tân Khoa, who i liked in 9 grade, he was cool haha. Another about a guy who i cannot name because he is my friend and one of my girls like him, so i cannot risk saying his name here haha. Another one is about a guy i met at a camp for about ... long ago, just kidding, it was the start of this school year, i had a crush on him partly because he was so cool dancing and he was kinda cold and nice at the same time, which is one of the thing i love about guys. Just the thinking of it brings a smile to my face. He dances like a boss, and i used present tense to report this to emphasize that akways dances awesomely haha, yeah i thought he was cold but somehow i was attracted to him, maybe because he was kinda the guys i always fall for, no matter how hard i try, and actually not that much haha, i just cannot stay away. Then when i was hanging with one of my dudes from the school, yeah we were separated so we could make new friends and do some teamwork, my friend played the harmonica, which is huge at our school but not very popular outside in the conventional world, and suddenly he came up sitting with us, and he asked my friend if he could borrow the harmonica. At first, my friend was such an ass, haha, and did not lend him. Then we started talking and he was such a nice guy WITH HUMOR, another thing i love about guys haha, and my friend then lended him the harmonica, and he played it just as well as any guy from our school. I was shocked that there was actually someone knew about and knew how to play it, you know, apart from ones in my schoo. That moment, i just realized i had a crush on him, which is just cute because we are not gonna see each other anymore. Yeah, kinda sad but maybe not entirely, remember in How i met your mother season 1 or 2 i do not remember, Ted hooks up with this girl at the wedding and she does not wanna know anything about him so this will just be a good memmory they will sometimes recall and smile or laugh about it. This kinda feels like it, because everytime i think about that guy, i feel a sudden urge to smile haha. I will never know if he really a nice guy or just a badass who just pretends to be cool to make girls fall for him, woah that is somehow kinda harsh don't you think haha ? I am sure he is not that bad, but who know huh ? Yeah my dream about him was just as sweet as anything i remember about him. In the dream, he somehow goes to my school and attend some kinda conference about study abroad in Japan and strangely again, all my friends do not wanna go so i just go alone haha. Then we meet, and he remembers me. What a nice dream ! We do some jokings and laughing. After that dream, i feel like falling for him all over again without seeing him haha.
Yeah, those dreams made me so confounded i could not stop thinking about them, in which i have really good moments that only happen in movies or things like that. Last night, or should i say, this morning i had one like that. About anh Thành Nhân, who is my crush in 10 grade, or last year, partially haha. Yeah, i fell for his guitar playing to be exact, and his seemingly cool but actually kinda shy side. People only see him playing the guitar or the piano so well and he does not talk much, they, including i in the beginning, just assume that he is cold.
Yet after our school traditional camp, one of the guys from 12 Math class knew about that and set me up the day after the camp. When we were eating lunch, one of his friends was hitting on my girl, Mía, suddenly, actually not really that sudden, just because 2 of our friends mentioned earlier were so shy and had nothing to talk about, they changed the subject to my secret crush on anh TN. Then, the fcking guy who claimed himself to be one of anh TN close friends, asked another guy to get anh TN to the canteen, where we were. Later, anh TN came ahhhhhh !!!! Althouh i was screaming and squealing like a kiddy school girl in the inside, you was able to keep my cool on the outside haha. We talked like normal people, a senior and a freshman, i admit, he was super duper cute. He was kinda shy and also straightforward at the same time. He was confused at first and did not know what to talk about, and i was the talkative girl so i brought up some topics, and before we knew it, all of our friends already left. I thought he was gonna return to his class leaving me there, after all, he was asked to come and talk to me, there was no thing like obligation for him to stay and continue talking to me, but HE STAYED !!! yeah, i said he was straighforward, didn't I ? yeah, he started asking me things and we were like ... um i don't know, SOULMATES haha !! Yeah, we were so absorbed that we did not realize lunch time was over until the class bell rang and my friends passed us to go to the chemistry lab to do some experiments. I then was so shocked and just did not know what to do rather than hurrily say goodbye to him and also sorry for the inconvenience. I did not remember clearly but he said something like, "I stayed becaused i wanted to talk to you more" awwwwwwwwwwww !!! What i did not know at the time is that all of his friends knew about it and started inquiring him once he got back. And in the break time in the afternoon, OMG this is kinda embarrassing to tell, but yeah i will continue. My girls were hanging out at balcony in front of our class, and suddenly the spotted him on the balcony in front of his class, which is 2 floors from mine, staring at them. They called me outside and then suddenly his friends appeared and all of them, including him, started staring at me, i could really feel embarrassed but i just could not turn away, that would be rude. Suddenly, again, they start shouting his name ahhhhh >.< for like 2 or 3 times. Then THEY STARTED SHOUTING MINE !!!! Some others from the other classes heard it and went out, not like the whole school but, enough for the story to ran around the school. But it did not end there. They went inside, we, i and my friends thought it was over, but it was not. They returned and started shouting "I like you" !!! gosh, i was so embarrassed, not like humiliated-embarrassed but more like blushing-embarrassed, i just did not wanna use that word. Then i heard the news that struck me like a lighting, they were called inside for punishment because they "make noise in the break time", which, to my opinion, was not satisfactory at all. What was wrong with shouting AT BREAK TIME ??? but of course i did not have a voice in that issue. Then my friends started teasing me about it. I got so confused i yelled at the senior who set me up in the beginning and he misunderstood me and told anh TN that i did not like him.
I got so frustuated and so scared i did not explain that to him. I was afraid of what he and his friends would think about me: a bitch who plays around with people's feelings. Fortunately, they did not think about me that way. I think anh TN persuade them to believe me. Then of course we could not return back to the beginning, we were back to normal friends. I was lucky he is a nice guy. Yeah, i have to admit i have always had a thing for him. You know, for him to not treat me like a bitch is incredible, even my friends censured me about it, yet he did not say a thing. But i was upset we were not exactly normal friends: we both know we have things to figure out, yet we refuse to do it.
Then he took the entrance test and got into the best university in VN, i must say. He was good at studying to, i love guys who are smarter than me haha, and you cannot blame me. He left high school and we did not meet since except for some of the events at our school, he returned with his friends to attend, you cannot blame them either, my school is awesomeeeeee !!! We met as normal friends and exchanged greetings as acquaintances, except for the fact that one of his friends, who is super handsome and nice and all, he has one blemish, he just love to tease me and anh TN about the thing happened, you know, the break time thing haha. He kept saying he lost some points on our relationship so it has to work out haha, we all know he was just joking, part of me somehow sometimes for some reasons wants him to meant it. That would mean that anh TN still has a thing for me. I know that is low, even for me, and also a horrible thing to ask after all i did to him, for which my friends predicted that he will come back and take revenge on me. Last 2 times i saw him, there were somethings happened. The former one is at out singing contest for Teacher's day. He did not arrived until late, and by the time i saw him, i had to leave as well. I wanted to come up and say hello so bad, but i was alone and he was with his friends and i did not wanted to cause him any inconvenience. So after the ongoing performance ended, i went outside to go home and surprised to find him out there talking with his friends. I mean, they just arrived and just a minute ago, they were in the hall watching the performance tentatively. We said hi then i when down the stairs, after some steps, i found him after me, as surprised as i could get, i asked him " Where are you going ?" he simply answered "I'm going home". See ? the strange thing is he has just arrive yet he wanted to go home. I did not say that he went down stairs just so he could walk with me, but who can blame a teenage girl for overthinking things haha ?
Our latest meeting was our school Spring festival, where classes set up shops to sell things and there will be a concert in the evening. While i was running around selling things, i ran into the nice-handsome-somehow-annoying friend of him, I asked him to buy one, and he just answered matter-of-the-fact-ly "Wait for TN, he will buy all of them for you haha". I just skipped him before my friends could make fun of me in front of him. Then, thanks to my incredible almot unbelievable resistance, we sold them all. And when i was selling fruit at out shop, my friends pulled me out and just almost literally shoved me to anh TN, who seemed surprised at the scene, too, guess anh Hoàng Sơn, the handsome one, had something to do with it. anh Hoàng Sơn said "You wanna sell anything, sell it to him". I was kinda upset to realized that i already sold all of them, all that was left was fruit. as if I was afraid he would run away, i held his hand unintendedly and anh Hoàng Sơn just had things to talk about. He went like "Oooh, holding hands". I did not let go, even now i do not know what made me so bold that moment. And anh TN said fruit was OK so i told my friend to made him 2 helpings haha. Then i realized, all my girls were gone, as usual, when a boy i like is around, they always disappear mysterioslyl, guess i just have to deal with it myself. Then because it was at the end of the selling section, my classmates were hurrily selling all the things with half price and all, they were busy as hell, so we have to wait for some time. Suddenly, one girl from anh TN's friends who are all standing a meter from us, stepped up and 'sorta' clinged onto him and said "it took so long, let's go' and i hurrily said "please wait just a little bit more" and she kept going like "let's go" and to my and also her surprise, anh TN coldly said "Just wait a little bit more, it's ok". I, at that moment, sensed something and immediately let go of his hand and stepped back 1 step. You know what i fear right, she was his girlfriend. Then i gave him the fruit and said thank you and goodbye, we continued with our work. It was kinda sad to type that down. However, i had to go home early so i could not watch anh TN playing guitar in the concert. Then anh Hoàng Sơn asked me through Y! that why i did not stay. Then i just simply asked him about the girl in the evening, he laughed and said "She was my girlfriend". I laughed it away too, but it was still kinda cryptic to me the way she and anh TN behaved. Anyway, I also told anh Hoàng Sơn to stop teasing me for fear that it will annoy anh TN, you know, if he does not like me anymore. Yeah, and anh HS just went like "you made him blushed" at the time, it did not mean much to me because i was super depressed at that time and now, i just read it again, my heart skipped a beat and i could not stop reading it over and over. All because of that dream. You know, i like boys who treats me well, i want warmth and sense of security and also a sense of control over me. I want someone who can, you know, coldly reply to me the way anh TN did to anh HS's girlfriend haha. And in my dream, he really did that, but he was still a nice guy, so in the end, i woke up thinking about him on and on until now. It's like the 2nd dream all over again.
Writing this all down makes me feel like a novelist or at least a fictionist haha. Although these are all real, it's pretty hard to believe huh ? Sometimes, life is like a movie whose ending is unknown.