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well this week is almost over, but all my tests are done (for now). i was and am pretty bumbed about my anatomy test--i got a 74%, when i had walked out feeling good about it. it was a real blow to my pride, i was upset and didnt feel like studying for anything else. but then i had two more tests, today, which im glad are over, except that i have the other half of one the week after spring break. and 3 more th eweek after that--so spring break will deffinietly include some studying. which isnt bad, it will give me something to do. I duno, lately im like restless, if im not doing somthing then i freakin freak out i cant just relax. i think too much, too, i over plan everything. it makes me feel like a loser that i have this problem! like dont i have better things to do? apparently not. i think im feelin depressed but i dont understand why! this move has been such a big change and its hard to get used to this lonely feeling. at the same time, maybe im just more upset over that test than i thought. i really studied hard for that thing-HARD. and often. :( ahh i duno theres so many things going on right now, so much confusion. my head is literally in a thousand places all the time and won't sit still, what am i suppossed to do? but much of what is is controllable by me. so many things so figure out, so much never ending change. its daily.