it's been a while..
sorry for neglecting my lj lately, actually it's ben a long time. i have my reasons.. but one is mainly that no one really reads this, i don't really c tha point of a myspace except 2 make comments on ppl's things. otherwise i dont really know. whatever
this month has ben disappointing, miserable, and extremely painful rolled up into one. i dont really wana publish this out 2 ppl so ask if u really care.
i put away messages on, everything, no body notices, not even my closest friends. this kind of scared me and maybe it's telling me something too? idk. this is shit, i know that
the recital was osm. dont wana go in2 detail becuz once again, no one reads this.
that's about it. im probably not going to write for a long time cuz its guna be hard 2 get over this. every day i'm crying, every night, whenever i think about them. but nothing can be done now.
you say 'i know exactly how you feel' but u have no fucking clue. NO FUCKING CLUE so dont say u do!! i mean really u dont, stop trying to relate to me when u dont have any clue how i feel. this is the worst pain in the world that i've ever went thru, and stupid ppl who r like 'pain is all i know' and fuckin shit like that dont even no what fuckin pain is until they go thru sumthin like i have.
pain is when u try your VERY HARDEST not to cry but you do.
pain is when you lose ur best friend
pain is when you don't even care that people are staring at your tear stained eyes
pain ISNT when a guy doesnt like you, omg that sucks yea but not nearly as bad as it cud b. i consider those ppl very very lucky.
the scary part is hardly anyone knows. nobody notices the pain is my eyes even tho i'm smiling and laughing, u dont even realize how much i am hurting.
ugh.
until next time..
x0x-->eLLeN
this month has ben disappointing, miserable, and extremely painful rolled up into one. i dont really wana publish this out 2 ppl so ask if u really care.
i put away messages on, everything, no body notices, not even my closest friends. this kind of scared me and maybe it's telling me something too? idk. this is shit, i know that
the recital was osm. dont wana go in2 detail becuz once again, no one reads this.
that's about it. im probably not going to write for a long time cuz its guna be hard 2 get over this. every day i'm crying, every night, whenever i think about them. but nothing can be done now.
you say 'i know exactly how you feel' but u have no fucking clue. NO FUCKING CLUE so dont say u do!! i mean really u dont, stop trying to relate to me when u dont have any clue how i feel. this is the worst pain in the world that i've ever went thru, and stupid ppl who r like 'pain is all i know' and fuckin shit like that dont even no what fuckin pain is until they go thru sumthin like i have.
pain is when u try your VERY HARDEST not to cry but you do.
pain is when you lose ur best friend
pain is when you don't even care that people are staring at your tear stained eyes
pain ISNT when a guy doesnt like you, omg that sucks yea but not nearly as bad as it cud b. i consider those ppl very very lucky.
the scary part is hardly anyone knows. nobody notices the pain is my eyes even tho i'm smiling and laughing, u dont even realize how much i am hurting.
ugh.
until next time..
x0x-->eLLeN