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cross your fingers it is not cancer, i don't know what i would do without her. she is one of the most influential people on my life and we all need her in our lives because for five of us, she is the only one we have left. she is amazing and i love her because she is one of my favorite people in the entire world. anyone who has met her knows just how amazing she is and we'd all be lost without her. since i'm the only one away from home and i hate it, i havent gotten to spend as much time with her as i would like to be able to. i am really hoping for the best. i would rather be in pain the rest of my life and be miserable to take away the pain she is feeling right now and that she will be okay, and that it's just a random spot and nothing serious. maybe if i hope hard enough things will turn out okay...but until wednesday, nobody will know anything. i dont like waiting...especially when i am not home. thankfully i will be home on monday for a little while to pick up nick with and i can go visit her and bring her a new painting because she is one of the few people in the world that i can talk to about art and that has a mutual appreciation for the importance of art.