This is difficult

[jekkabear]

If kirt would make up his mind if he wants me or not would make this whole waiting for you thing ok. but when he gets all bi polar mood swings and tries to hurt me on purpose I just wanna scream at him to tell me if he wants me or not. For now I'm just going to let him be if he wants to call me whatever. I'm going to game with the guys tonight and feel like I'm worth something I might go bowling this sat. with buddha James because I feel like hitting shit. And I have to find a second job at night so that I can talk to James's mom and see if I can rent that room now so I can get into town and away from the whole home drama, deciding who's house to live in, and the whole kirt thing. Oh and wish me luck on my exams on thursday for college.

I love you all and thanks for just being there bricket jules I don't know what I would do without you both.