What Made Me Feel This Was..?
Part 2 of 4 of the Free Writing (see the post before last.)
What made me feel this was?#
"I was made upset by the Louis Theroux documentary that dealt with Assisted Suicide. Initially, what made me feel sad was when Gus, an older man (who I saw a lot of me within) killed himself but he had a party with his family and friends around him when he went. It was really beautiful.
I realised that’s what I want, if I’m unlucky enough to be stricken with Cancer, to choose when I go and have a final party.
Toni thought it was to do with my Mum’s fragility at the moment, I guess that might have been too. I have been telling myself that I accept that she hasn’t got long left but maybe I am not in touch with the reality of the depth of my feelings towards her, now we have repaired our relationship from the distant one of my mid-teens.
She rarely shows emotion but cried when I Graduated and cried when I got married, I guess it is buried underneath somewhere."
What made me feel this was?#
"I was made upset by the Louis Theroux documentary that dealt with Assisted Suicide. Initially, what made me feel sad was when Gus, an older man (who I saw a lot of me within) killed himself but he had a party with his family and friends around him when he went. It was really beautiful.
I realised that’s what I want, if I’m unlucky enough to be stricken with Cancer, to choose when I go and have a final party.
Toni thought it was to do with my Mum’s fragility at the moment, I guess that might have been too. I have been telling myself that I accept that she hasn’t got long left but maybe I am not in touch with the reality of the depth of my feelings towards her, now we have repaired our relationship from the distant one of my mid-teens.
She rarely shows emotion but cried when I Graduated and cried when I got married, I guess it is buried underneath somewhere."