One Day, We'll Sleep Again, Some Sunny Day..!

[jeffthelion]

The last few weeks has been redefining tough, not only physical (sleeping on the sofa, so that Toni and Travis can sleep better), carrying Travis around for an hour and a half at a time at a time most are still in bed (as he was only sleeping on me) and mentally, watching your child repeatedly vomit and cry and repeat, before VISIBLY losing weight and slowly unveiling his ribcage to the World.

All the while, juggling a job, starting back at College, trying to do some Counselling on fuck all sleep, a relationship and a social life, I've found new reserves of energy hidden away, I don't know where. Can they hide these type of things behind your eyes, in the middle of your toes and round the back of your teeth? As I don't know where they can exist and I not notice them previously.

Not just physical energy, mental energy is sometimes the hardest. It's needed to uphold conversations, have a laugh at life, say the things that make someone else's day, that your mind might be telling you is an idiotic thing to say as you are tired, the things you take for granted you can't anymore.

So yeah, I've not posted as much but I will be, if not today or tomorrow, soon I will be. As some day, we'll sleep again, some sunny day..!