true love ain't that hard to find. not that any of us will ever know // ryan adams
the masquarade was saturday. i had a lot of fun. i got to spend some great times with joe and matt and other friends. i danced a lot and just had a crazy time. but during the entire thing, i couldnt help but be depressed. cause im still without a girl, with no hope in sight. and i know i shouldnt be sad about it. i should know that thigns will come around and that im not the only one lonely. but it sucks. i feel like i get let down so much and i dont deserve it. i think all the time that im not going to let myself be heart broken again, and then i let it happen. cause i suck like that. so i dont know what im going to do. probably just think some more about it and let it go until the next one comes along. but its crazy, this whole high school thing.