I need to stop this paranoia
I know I've mentioned this before, but Eddy mentioned his ex again. i should stop with this paranoia. It's not good. But it puts a question into my head of what we are? I know, I know, I should be patient and see how it goes. But i hate the idea that this would fizzle into nothing. I really like this guy. This is what he said (he was feeling really low at this point):
eddy says:
it's seems like that yeah, saw my ex out on sat/sun which hasnt helped at all
Amanda | lil scouse | I fancy a trip to Athens now! ......and now Wembley!!! says:
that's the last thing you need i'm sure.
eddy says:
well its not her thats the prob we get on quite well since splitting but its her friends
eddy says:
i dont want to bore u with this nonsense i am sorry
eddy says:
need to chill out
I just felt really weird with that. I know people have pasts and the fact he keeps saying "ex" is a good thing I guess. But, argh, what's wrong with me??!!!!! Am I just scared that this could be nothing? I know he has a lot on at the moment and I should really wait till he's sorted things out (it's a long list). Am I just best staying on the outside at the moment? You know, I think I just realised what my worry is - him finding someone else. Now that's huge paranoia!!!!! This is ridiculous. :(
He did end the convo by saying:
Amanda | lil scouse | I fancy a trip to Athens now! ......and now Wembley!!! says:
yeah that's fine. i hope you do sleep ok tonight. it does worry me that you're feeling like this. i just want to help more.
eddy says:
i'll be right-just need to get head straight, you are helping by being there
That's a good thing I guess. And he has asked for my address so he can send my birthday card. I guess this could be a case of my impatience striking again. I just hate waiting and things not being definate. My brother said to me that a guy will just say things out right and that talking about ex's isn't a problem. But isn't that something they talk to friends about? Oh i'm all confuddled!!! I'm just being silly, right? I bloody well hope so!