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So I officially have the best dad in the world. I couldn't have asked for anything more from him. He and I had a rather lengthy discussion tonight about how I plan to go back to School soon. without getting into the specifics, he told me what i need to do: told me what my weaknesses are and what he's confused about regarding music in the professional world.
speaking with him, i also realized things about myself that i didn't even know. I actually said, "when i see the word 'shaws' i see 'failure'" and it's true. I do. I'm a fucking college graduate and i'm stuck working at shaws. we talked about other things, too. the fact that i want things to happen right away and how i'm not privy to earning them. I think this comes down to the fact that i was pampered more than anyone else in my family. It's not that i don't want to earn stuff, it's just that i know what i want and i want it as soon as i can get it with as little undesireable work as possible. call me selfish, it's ok. i know i am. i'm stubborn as all hell, too. But i know what i want to do....or at least i think i do. ugh, how contradictory can i get.
we also discussed how i have gotten dicked over as far as jobs go. i've applied to three jobs since being back. no, not a lot, i'll admit that. but there's so little to apply for in plymouth. I've had other chances to apply to other places, in boston specifically, but those fell through. for all three jobs, i either got rejected or i never heard back from the company. ugh ok...
HAPPY news time. YAY for happy news.
I'm going down to NY to see everyone at the choir concert in Pearl River. We're all staying at Siobhans house and there will be/should be several choir memebers there, too, hanging with us. I'm really excited to see and hear the choir as well as the Wesby's. Not to mention my friends from the Wag. miss you all so much!
At monday's rehearsal, i found out that I have four solos for the upcoming "Messiah" concert. The most of anyone in the group. true, two of them are recits, but still. I'm very happy. I didn't have the best audition AT ALL, but the director is giving me the benefit of the doubt. I'll be singing the recit, "He was cut off out of the land of the living" and the Aria that follows, "But Thou didst not leave His soul in hell" as well as the recit "Unto which of the angels said He?" these all surround the Chorus, "Lift up your heads" for which I am in the "chamber choir" for. yay. In Part three, i'll be singing the Alto/Tenor duet, "O death, where is thy sting?" with my old high school nurse! Hahaha! so funny. I'm really looking forward to this. It should be a decent concert. I'll post times and stuff at a later date. for now, it's time for bed! YAY, BED!
speaking with him, i also realized things about myself that i didn't even know. I actually said, "when i see the word 'shaws' i see 'failure'" and it's true. I do. I'm a fucking college graduate and i'm stuck working at shaws. we talked about other things, too. the fact that i want things to happen right away and how i'm not privy to earning them. I think this comes down to the fact that i was pampered more than anyone else in my family. It's not that i don't want to earn stuff, it's just that i know what i want and i want it as soon as i can get it with as little undesireable work as possible. call me selfish, it's ok. i know i am. i'm stubborn as all hell, too. But i know what i want to do....or at least i think i do. ugh, how contradictory can i get.
we also discussed how i have gotten dicked over as far as jobs go. i've applied to three jobs since being back. no, not a lot, i'll admit that. but there's so little to apply for in plymouth. I've had other chances to apply to other places, in boston specifically, but those fell through. for all three jobs, i either got rejected or i never heard back from the company. ugh ok...
HAPPY news time. YAY for happy news.
I'm going down to NY to see everyone at the choir concert in Pearl River. We're all staying at Siobhans house and there will be/should be several choir memebers there, too, hanging with us. I'm really excited to see and hear the choir as well as the Wesby's. Not to mention my friends from the Wag. miss you all so much!
At monday's rehearsal, i found out that I have four solos for the upcoming "Messiah" concert. The most of anyone in the group. true, two of them are recits, but still. I'm very happy. I didn't have the best audition AT ALL, but the director is giving me the benefit of the doubt. I'll be singing the recit, "He was cut off out of the land of the living" and the Aria that follows, "But Thou didst not leave His soul in hell" as well as the recit "Unto which of the angels said He?" these all surround the Chorus, "Lift up your heads" for which I am in the "chamber choir" for. yay. In Part three, i'll be singing the Alto/Tenor duet, "O death, where is thy sting?" with my old high school nurse! Hahaha! so funny. I'm really looking forward to this. It should be a decent concert. I'll post times and stuff at a later date. for now, it's time for bed! YAY, BED!