thinking
lately i have been thinking about the future. i see why my parents push me so hard. i see why life sucks a lot. and i realized that it was time for me to make myself. no more fucking around just straight doing what i need to, to accomplish my goals in life. it so funny how things can just smack you in the face when you are least expecting it. all this time i wanted a girlfriend someone to hold onto. now i am fine where i am at. i realize that i am going to be 20 and there is no reason for me to have someone right now. as much as i would take it, a girlfriend could and probably would slow my life process. for one i am slowing it enough and for another person to help me slow it wouldn't be a good thing. one of my goals is to play college hockey. i am practicing now so that way soon i will be able to play with CSULB's team. my grades are about to skyrocket. cause i actually want to do homework. if you listen to the incubus cd make yourself all those songs are really talking about is just that. which in turn makes me think i should do the same. and i am. no more fucking around. it pointless. i want to be an actor so i am taking the steps on being one. i don't just want to be an actor i want to be the actor who everyone remembers but forgets their name. i wanna work my ass off to be that. its number one goal in life right now. and it won't change till i accomplish that. i can't think of anything else that would make me as happy as that would. this is the first time i have sat and looked at my life so far. its time i give what i give in hockey to the rest of stuff i do. work school acting. no more being lazy time to get into my life in shape. its time i showed the world my face
its time,
no more bullshit
Never Forget.9.11 many men and women. could have been your family.
GBUSA
peace